last week

I have 2 tests tomorrow and i have no idea what to study.

Last minute don't work for me.

So...

GG tml already.

DM on wed.

Fixed pros on fri.

I'm am soo screwed up.

Panicking now,

but it seems rather evident that nothing can save my ass now.

Why can't we just have a slacker week before hols?

Lousy

I feel so lousy.

Things hasn't been working out well for me i guess.

First, my unit broke down...

so got to sit somewhere where the slow speed handpiece(drill) works.

Then... redid my gold crown...

And then lost my gold sprue, which got sucked into the machine and cost like almost more than half the amt of gold i bought, so it's abt 80 plus dollars for that 3.6 grams.

Went through a hell lot trouble.

Found it back.

ok..

next..

porosity in the gold crown. AGAIN

and it doesn't help when i put in so much effort and the doc said: i wouldn't dream of giving this to my patient."

Then...

wanted to ask a doc to check my work.. was walking, this classmate saw me.. and walked quickly behind. As i called: er doc, she shove her work under his nose.. cut queue. Thanks man. just what i need."

On top of that,

got a B for my perio test which i put in so much effort too, scraping every piece of calculus and making sure i did a gd job.

And.. on top of that, i revised and studied and wrote notes for radiology.

But then. screw up at the practical test.. sooo..

that's an F and a REDO.

Other than that,

i have some other irritating classmates who seem rather keen to tip my mood balance to lousy.

Things aren't turning out as well as before..

I don't know what is wrong.

Put in so much effort.. but things just don't reflect..

I really did, and i've always been told by others that i have high expectations from myself..

So then again.. what is going on?

Maybe i'm just decieving myself.

I just pray that things will make a turn for the better.

:(

to myself.

I don't know what the bloody damn it stupid problem i'm having.

I just have an issue with myself, my work, my stupid grades.

Work so hard,

get yet another unsatisfactory end product.

Mugging efficacy drop to even lower levels.

Don't tell me this is it.

Frustration.

Piak piak i just wanna slap myself.

One word for reward.

S-T-U-P-I-D

Dumb, dumber and dumbest.

argh. piak piak.

wake up!

thinking but not saying

Got so much to say, been thinking so so so much.

About this, about that, about almost so many things.

nevermind.

hai

i guess i'm getting more and more short temper in class.

I just cannot listen clearly in class when there're mumblings so often.

It doesn't help to have pp throwing sweets to each other,

talking and joking when the lecturer is talking,

and it doesn't help that the class rep sent so many emails out to ask us to shhhhhh.

hai...

diff pp have diff priorities in class.

i pay my school fees, i want to be a dentist.

i try my best to shut up in class.

Spread the love

I don't know whether i should be going for the cambodia trip at all after all that has occurred at home.

But still,

i will do my best to plan and fund raise for the kids there.

Hopefully all the plans will not clash and everything gets settled

meanwhile,

Dear all,

i'm fund raising to get oral kits and PE kits for the children in cambodia.

A full kit is about 15 dollars and consist of a toothpaste, a toothbrush, a pair of socks, a pair of shoes, a pair of shorts and a shirt.

IF you can, please help me and these young children ok?

I'll be going down under the name of project Sabai( also called project love, sabai is love in cambodia) with the medical team this time round.

Any amount will do too if 15 dollars is a lot.

Thank you very much for your help.

:)

tests

I test down.

9 more to go.

4 competencies.

1 useless test.

Fixed prostho theory

Dental materials theory

microbiology theory

pharmaco theory which is this coming TUES!.

I need to remember more things seriously

...

Contemplating.

Thinking, wondering.

Sometimes it's good that somethings happen, sometimes it's bad that somethings happen.

Perhaps they all have a reason for why they happen.

Certain things i'm glad they happened.

Certain things, i'm glad they never happened.

Whatever that is,

Learn to accept.

Learn to adapt.

find it back

Where is it?

Did you lose it?

Did you forget it all?

Find it back.

You aren't working hard enough.

hmmm

I think i need a change.

To be more positive and love my life the way it is.

right.