。。。

听说龙在09年的财运不好。

我的年还没便领教到了这一点。

笨猫又病了。

发烧。

唉。。。

又要花钱了。

真是破财消灾。

该去拜拜，por bee por bee loh.

first day of school

第一天，

顺顺利利。

Although 有人 irritate 我。

Well, as usual.....

But bo chup is the way。

I'm loving it. haha!

come on。

顺顺利利。

好的快点来，坏的不要来。

Por Bee Por Bee.

:)

Fight of the Ang Baos

Me: Eh mama. i show u something.

flips over my pillow and shows her a few ang baos underneath

Mama: 你在做什么？做么把它们放在这边? 发神经阿？

Me：没有啦！lixia 讲把红包放在这边，过了新年才开，会LUCKY 吗。

Mama：你有病啊。

Me：神经病。

I turn to look at my lap top and at the back, she is making herself busy opening my ang baos.

I turn back in horror.

Me: 你做么开我的红包？！！ 不LUCKY 了！！！WHEY。。。。。我的LUCKY都跑掉了啦。Wa Lao。。。

Mama：哈哈，看你的红包，chey。。　才一点点。

Me: 本来可以多一点的，lucky都跑掉了，没有了lor.

last day of my long weekend

I can't believe that the long weekend is coming to an end soon.

This is so annoying.

Tml need to go school again.

Start of another dreadful school week.

Good thing is that it is rather short.

Let it end soon.

I can't wait to graduate.

Somethings just don't change.

But i guess i want to change my outlook in life.

Whatever good that comes, i shall welcome it.

Whatever bad that comes, i will overcome it.

At the very least, bo chup.

I LOVE to bo chup.

Love it like nuts. haha.

And most importantly,

DO my best.

And whatever i get, be thankful cos things could have been worse and most importantly...

DON'T COMPLAIN.

I hope i can do this though.

Hope... hmmm. i think i try la hor.

Cannot achieve means bo bian also lah. haha!

Somehow i'm quite sick of complaning and whining and whining and whining.

I mean yea, i do get that momentary satisfaction, but then again, i'm just making myself look like a bitter old man.

Woman i mean. Oops

Ok, that shall be my new year resolution.

STOP WHINING AND ACTING LIKE A BITCH.

But then again,

I rather people treat me with more sincerity.

Whatever the case. 懒得管哈!

好的快点来。

开心天天在。

坏的不要来。

坏人快滚开。

笑口要常开！

Por Bee Por Bee.

Happy new year.

Let us welcome the brand new school day with er.... joy.

Yeah. "joy"

Spell with me.

J-O-Y.

don't forget your punctuation marks.

"J-O-Y"

:D

Oh yeah, one more thing.

财源滚滚来！

HUAT AH!

happy new year day 1

I know my family members LOVE to joke.

Sister in law: Wa. so long never see u already. Grown much TALLER and FATTER hor.

Me: oh. hahahaha. U LOOVVEE to joke eh.

lol.

I know she's just kidding.

I think it's funny too.

hahaha.

I know la...She IS just joking.

hah

Sister in law: Ok, i'm going home. bye bye. Don't study too hard hor.

Me: ?!?! er. hur hur hur. Ok. (crosses my fingers behind my back)

I also realised that i recieved an sms from someone who's number wasn't registered in my phone.

so.. i msged back and here's the reply.

我是你的三叔，你爸爸的弟弟。

LOL!

so hip.

Reunion dinner

For reunion dinner,

i had steamboat again.

For the dunno how many years already.

Mum at 630pm: Aiyah.. what shall we cook today leh. Sui bian eat ok hor?

Me: aiyah. sui bian la, whatever goes in comes out the same way.

Mum: what to cook leh.

Me: no need to cook la, boil water, throw all inside. Lagi easy right. No need to wash so many things also.

Mum: steamboat ah.

Me: ya. find the pot then grab some stuff from the fridge and throw in lor. eeeaassyy Peasy!

Mama: ok lor.

Me announces: STEAMBOAT TONIGHT HOR..

Papa shouts: EH! Mmm sai ju fan! Or yao mai fan! ( in cantonese meaning no need to cook rice, i got buy rice back)

Me: Oooh lala.. easy job.. i go watch tv.

This is what happened for reunion dinner tonight.

HAH!

Happy new year to all!

sick

Finally,

I'm down with the flu bug too.

Hai.

random

I think i can't be bothered to the point i don't justify whatever i do.

Er..

I guess i don't really care nor give a damn even i get misunderstood.

I don't see the need to explain to everyone, to let everyone know what is going on etc.

Anyway,

I think my blog is way too negative for my own good.

Not healthy.

heh.

oh yes.

I love grapes.

Enough is enough.

Things hasn't been going smoothly for me for some time already.

I wonder when things will improve.

I guess the saying that 祸不单行 is true.

Anyway,

I'm shocked by myself at the extend to which i dislike some people.

Just happen to see one of them just now,

and my first INNATE reaction was to find a way to hide myself.

That was instinct at that point in time.

I just wished that there's a huge wall near by to hide behind.

When i realise that the person didn't see me...

I felt really really relieved.

And at the back of my mind i was cursing and swearing at that 173 bus uncle,

cursing him for driving so damn it slowly and not coming on time, causing me to bump into someone i don't want to see at all.

Not at this point in life.

I'm having bad times already, and i don't see the need to meet people who'll make my bad day even WORSE.

Yes, this is how much i don't want to see them.

And it was only after that when i reflected upon this that i realise the extend to which i really really really don't want to be involved with these people.

Irony is..

People you want to see, you don't get to see them often.

People you don't want to see, you see them ever so often and there's no way out.

But right now,

there is something i am very clear about.

I want nothing to do with them as soon as possible, as soon as i can, as fast as possible.

Just like how i want all the bad things in my life to end.

Enough is enough.

I really don't know whether i'm reaching my limit soon.

I really don't know if i am going to be able to take it anymore.

Enough is enough.

I've had enough.

Bloody PUB

I'm seriously getting more and more irritable as days pass by.

It doesn't help that the water from the shower head is getting smaller and smaller.

Wonder what PUB is up to.

Pisses me off seriously, esp when i'm very particular about having a good shower everyday.

The water is so small i feel that a piece of my flesh is still covered in dirt.

ARGH.

Friends

Somehow,



i erally miss nj days, i miss my friends there.



And rare opportunities where i get to meet many of them,



like ash's birthday party today,



I cherish it even more.



Somehow i think i've been out of touch with them....



i lose myself admist all the competition and all the negative thoughts and feelings,



sometimes i question myself what friendship truly is..



But i'm glad today i get to find out for myself what true friends are, who they are and the joy they will always bring into my life.



Despite the fact that we may step on each others' toes many times.



I am glad that i've not chosen the wrong path, cos it lead me to the right people,



And i'm glad for what i have now,



Cos it just makes me treasure what i already have even more.



:)

Bad week

i feel beaten.

argh.

FYI: my cat came home with a piece of his skin missing near his hind legs. Yes, i can see the flesh underneath. The lesion is described as suppurative with necrotic borders and about 4 cm by 3 cm. He seems to be no longer feeling any sense of pain there which i presume is due to the death of the nervous tissues there.

Current status: hospitalised. surgery tomorrow. Due for collection in presumably 2 days time.

Cost: $300-400

My thoughts:

Ouch. Both due to his injury and also to the injury to my pocket. But if he recovers, it's all worth it.

Somehow things have been going rather un-smoothly for me. Family members falling ill, first my dad, now my mum even my cat is hospitalised.

Not that i am feeling great to begin with. dizzy spells seem to come and go ever so often, and i feel fatigued. Nauseating. Tachycardia? i don't know.

Let's not speculate.

Nope, just in case u are wondering. I am not having morning sickness. CHOY!

One word: Malaise

Tell me how to be more positive.

fireballs

I don't know which bastard did this to my cat.

But i tell you, karma exist and i hope whatever you've done will be reflected in your further generations.

If i even find out who did this,

I will sue you and either make u pay a hefty fine or go to jail for your barbaric act.

I make sure i will.

1st week

1st week of school down.

Somehow....

i also dunno what to do about certain things in school.

i don't know what i did wrong, but i guess i let it be,

since nobody bothers to clarify with me.

I can't change how u feel, what u think and since silence and indifference is the way chosen,

I just let it be.

cos i dunno what went wrong, and i dun bother.

first week of school,

things are the same, only difference is that i've become dumber.

Nothing else has changed.

I don't think i can change it, and with that,

i don't think i'm going to do anything about it or change it.

Life is gd the way it is nw, i step out of others' way, i hope they stay out of mine too.

so far so gd.

2nd day of school

Start of school.

But is full of fatigue and stress for me.

I seriously don't know how i am going to survive this term.

Everyone is picking up pace,

Why aren't i?

Seem to be getting worse.

Stress

I don't know why but i feel very very very stressed about schoool.

On top of that, i anticipate the learning,

But during the process i feel so demoralised and un-motivated.

I feel stressed out.

I don't know why.

School is starting soon.

Help.

I don't want to go to school!

I don't want to go to school!

I don't want to go to school!

I want to go home!

我不要上学！

带我回家！

我要回家！

我讨厌上学！

I don't want my holidays to end!

AHHHHHH.

(*#(@)&*&$&#*&@&#(@*#)(@*#

sounds like some 7 year old kid crying.

But becos i'm turning 21 soon,

the line full of symbols is an add-on.

This is how i feel,

and i bet how my youngest nephew who'll be pri 1 tml feels.

And how my niece, who's going to 豆豆班 feels.

They don't have any blogs, so i'm just helping them voice out their displeasures, with the add-on a representive of mine.

No.1!

New post,

New year!

I need a new handphone before this one explodes.