It's been a horrible week.
I feel lousy, i feel annoyed.
Thinking back,
I am starting to question myself how much have i really changed?
i wanted, and still want to leave the school in one intact piece.
But i see myself as a battered, torn, discoloured crumply piece of rag.
No longer the red vibrant piece of cloth which i first begun.
Would things be better if i've not accepted the offer?
Why are students so implicated into school matters....
Why can't they just let us study in peace?
Why can't everyone just appreciate one another.
Why can't everyone stop their attempts to try and step on each other to raise themselves higher?
Why can't everyone treat each other nicely at the beginning and not be rude just so they can make a statement?
Why can't people reciprocate kindness with kindness?
Why can't people realise that we are also in the same shit, we are all in the same situation and try adn help each other out?
Why can't people just stop what they're doing and reflect on the situation and try and change?
Why is it that everything which was done being taken for granted, and reciprocate that with selfish acts?
Why don't people just behave like adults,
like how people in a civilised society will behave as?
Instead of dwelling in the blame game,
instead of doing things for self benefit.
Why don't they see that we all have the same problems and helping each other out will be good?
Why don't we all see that we have a common goal?
I wonder if my decision was wrong to begin with.
I wonder if i would have made the same choice if i knew all these were waiting.
I am saddened by the fact that even i am starting to question myself.
If this is what i really wanted.
If i should even have worked hard to apply to come in..
politics, selfishness, etc etc
These are not my business.
i just want to come in a piece, graduate in one piece.
i just want to study.
i don't want all these. Just leave me alone.
Why can't that be achieved?
just get me out of here.
I am exhausted.
please spare me from all these.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Epitome of red wine
Someone once told me:
" some men are like red wine.They get better as they age."
This is the epitome.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqUxJ8WjTLw&feature=related
I've yet to find a similiar phrase describing ladies.
" some men are like red wine.They get better as they age."
This is the epitome.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqUxJ8WjTLw&feature=related
I've yet to find a similiar phrase describing ladies.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Rubberband
I miss home.
I miss my bed.
And i'm still home now.
I dread school.
It's seems like the 6mths more is inevitable.
I cry.
And it doesn't help.
I wanna embrace it all.
But things are not in my control.
There's only so much i can take in my stride.
So tired.
So strained.
So stretched.
Fatigue.
Save me from it all.
Bring me somewhere else.
Let me watch a movie.
Make me laugh.
Dry my sweat.
Let me run.
Let me fly.
Just let me issue my dentures and crown, complete my endo this term.
That's all i ask for.
but that seems too much isn't it?
I miss my bed.
And i'm still home now.
I dread school.
It's seems like the 6mths more is inevitable.
I cry.
And it doesn't help.
I wanna embrace it all.
But things are not in my control.
There's only so much i can take in my stride.
So tired.
So strained.
So stretched.
Fatigue.
Save me from it all.
Bring me somewhere else.
Let me watch a movie.
Make me laugh.
Dry my sweat.
Let me run.
Let me fly.
Just let me issue my dentures and crown, complete my endo this term.
That's all i ask for.
but that seems too much isn't it?
Sunday, August 8, 2010
bad shape. out of shape
You know you're in bad shape when..
1) you get stressed up because u cannot set up your denture teeth over the weekends for try-in the next week. That you realise u're crying out of frustration because of clinics and yet you realise that you go there when you're down. Irony.
2) You hate it when patients cannot come, keep Ps-ing etc. and pp who are FON.
3) you dislike festivals and public holidays which falls during term time cos that's going to affect your clinical schedule
4) you go into despair when H1N1 strikes and clinics is cancelled. While the other school children cheer with joy.
5) you talk about requirements, work, and more work. everyday. you eat, breathe, sleep and dream about work.
6) you just want to stop talking about school and dental related work cos it causes you to go into panic attack.
7) you feel jaded
8) you sleep minimally and work maximally. you wonder when you'll ever see the sun.
9) you dream about losing your teeth in your sleep. and you cry. wake up in cold sweat and look in the mirror just to make sure it's not coming true.
10) you wake up looking for the lower pair of your specs only to realise that you have been thinking about dentures. i mean. who has a lower pair of specs? you only have 1 don't you?
11) you accept the fact that yellow teeth are more natural.
12) you see more of your classmates than your family. you talk more to your classmates than anybody else.
You just wanna get out of school.
And that's me.
1) you get stressed up because u cannot set up your denture teeth over the weekends for try-in the next week. That you realise u're crying out of frustration because of clinics and yet you realise that you go there when you're down. Irony.
2) You hate it when patients cannot come, keep Ps-ing etc. and pp who are FON.
3) you dislike festivals and public holidays which falls during term time cos that's going to affect your clinical schedule
4) you go into despair when H1N1 strikes and clinics is cancelled. While the other school children cheer with joy.
5) you talk about requirements, work, and more work. everyday. you eat, breathe, sleep and dream about work.
6) you just want to stop talking about school and dental related work cos it causes you to go into panic attack.
7) you feel jaded
8) you sleep minimally and work maximally. you wonder when you'll ever see the sun.
9) you dream about losing your teeth in your sleep. and you cry. wake up in cold sweat and look in the mirror just to make sure it's not coming true.
10) you wake up looking for the lower pair of your specs only to realise that you have been thinking about dentures. i mean. who has a lower pair of specs? you only have 1 don't you?
11) you accept the fact that yellow teeth are more natural.
12) you see more of your classmates than your family. you talk more to your classmates than anybody else.
You just wanna get out of school.
And that's me.