It seems like the past is coated with a tinge of golden yellow, and like expired radiographs, they are slowly fading.
I don't know what i am holding onto, and i don't know what i am looking forward to at this point in life,
last few hours before another year passes me by.
It seems to me that as i grow older, days become shorter, years fly by before you even realise.
Many many things have happened this year.
Some for a reason,
Some without a reason.
Some were good,
Some were bad.
Things got better, things got worse.
Things to learn, things to re-learn, things to never learn.
People have crossed my path in ways more than one.
Some have been here and will be here to stay, i know.
Some people have wandered in unknowlingly,
i don't know whether they will wander off, or when they will wander off.
Some people have entered unknowingly, and have left with footprints.
Some have entered intentionally, and have left a trail of broken twigs and plucked flowers.
Some entered, and have removed the weeds and planted seeds which will bear fruit and flowers in the years to come.
A brand new year,
hopefully things will turn out much better.
Nobody can predict what will happen, good or bad.
Just hope that i can take it in my stride no matter what.
Be yourself,
stay truthful, honest, righteous and do nothing wrong.
To yourself, to others.
Embrace life now.
Be happy.
Hello 2009, goodbye 2008.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
:)
Nothing beats:
1. coming home late and seeing your family members or cat waiting for u at the doorstep.
2. Your cat following you and pestering you for a hug.
3. Your cat waiting for you outside the bathroom door and sleeping outside the door.
4. Your cat lies against your body as you stroke it and looks up at you.
5. Food and more home cooked food and soup. slurps
6. Snuggling in your bed after a hot water bath.
7. Listening to the radio and reading with only the night light on.
8. Watching TV as a family after dinner.
9. Feeling of no more tests. absolutely stress free!!
10. Waiting at the airport to check in your baggage for a holiday trip.
11. Sleeping till your wake up naturally.
12. Cooking together with your parents.
13. Home sweet home.
Perhaps that explains why i prefer to stay home than go out.
Ooooh.. if only holidays are longer...
1. coming home late and seeing your family members or cat waiting for u at the doorstep.
2. Your cat following you and pestering you for a hug.
3. Your cat waiting for you outside the bathroom door and sleeping outside the door.
4. Your cat lies against your body as you stroke it and looks up at you.
5. Food and more home cooked food and soup. slurps
6. Snuggling in your bed after a hot water bath.
7. Listening to the radio and reading with only the night light on.
8. Watching TV as a family after dinner.
9. Feeling of no more tests. absolutely stress free!!
10. Waiting at the airport to check in your baggage for a holiday trip.
11. Sleeping till your wake up naturally.
12. Cooking together with your parents.
13. Home sweet home.
Perhaps that explains why i prefer to stay home than go out.
Ooooh.. if only holidays are longer...
Monday, December 29, 2008
stay at home kid (SAHK)
I just want to stay home more often than i've ever felt.
I don't know why i'm feeling this way,
But i just want to stay home and not go anywhere.
Laziness?
Maybe,
Or perhaps i just want to relish the good times before school starts.
I don't know why i'm feeling this way,
But i just want to stay home and not go anywhere.
Laziness?
Maybe,
Or perhaps i just want to relish the good times before school starts.
NJ days
I miss those NJ days.
Looking back at someone else's photos.
OMG.
i miss those days.
Somehow things seem to be a blur now thinking about it.
I can only manage to recall bits and pieces of those times.
Somehow those days seem so far away leh.
Looking back at someone else's photos.
OMG.
i miss those days.
Somehow things seem to be a blur now thinking about it.
I can only manage to recall bits and pieces of those times.
Somehow those days seem so far away leh.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
tired
I think i am really getting old leh.
Been feeling rather ill and restless.
It's like i just want to go home and rest kinda.
Tired tired.
Waste my money taking some influenza jab.
...
Been feeling rather ill and restless.
It's like i just want to go home and rest kinda.
Tired tired.
Waste my money taking some influenza jab.
...
Saturday, December 27, 2008
apt
So true and so apt at this point in my life.
Speech by JK Rowling at the Harvard Graduation in June 2008, on 'The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination
".'.. so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life."
''It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default. "
''The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. "
''...personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, ..."
''As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters."
Speech by JK Rowling at the Harvard Graduation in June 2008, on 'The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination
".'.. so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life."
''It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default. "
''The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. "
''...personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, ..."
''As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters."
Friday, December 26, 2008
lol
I can't help but snigger when i heard that the other 3 dental guys who went sabai came down with food poisoning.
LOL.
Pai seh.
But i was just not advantuorous enough to eat snakes, crickets, tarantulas and what not.
LOL.
Somehow coming down with the flu bug seem so much better.
HAHA.
ZOMG. this is freaking funny.
LOL.
Pai seh.
But i was just not advantuorous enough to eat snakes, crickets, tarantulas and what not.
LOL.
Somehow coming down with the flu bug seem so much better.
HAHA.
ZOMG. this is freaking funny.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Flu bug
Down with the flu bug since last thurs.
ZOMG.
I literally slept my days off.
Hopefully it's not serious.
But it's just so not productive to feel soo lethargic and weak.
yeah.
Feeling like a wuss now.
ZOMG.
I literally slept my days off.
Hopefully it's not serious.
But it's just so not productive to feel soo lethargic and weak.
yeah.
Feeling like a wuss now.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas
After 1 year,
Christmas is here again.
Somehow i still dread and dislike.
Feeling the same emotions i felt last year during this time of the year.
But now, it's slightly more tolerable.
I guess it's after what i've been through at Cambodia, since it's just like barely 24 hours since i've reached singapore.
Christmas.
Somehow isn't as merry for me.
I dunno why too.
Don't ask me.
Christmas is here again.
Somehow i still dread and dislike.
Feeling the same emotions i felt last year during this time of the year.
But now, it's slightly more tolerable.
I guess it's after what i've been through at Cambodia, since it's just like barely 24 hours since i've reached singapore.
Christmas.
Somehow isn't as merry for me.
I dunno why too.
Don't ask me.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
sabai
I'm starting to miss cambodia and the children already.
I guess i may be going back again after all.
I guess i may be going back again after all.
Cambodia part 1
day 1: reached teuk thla and settled down at the house where we're suppose to stay at. it is way better than lokun and a bit unexpected. Many children were running around and while the meddies went to set up their clinics, we went out to buy more toothbrushes and toothpaste. Went to orussey market and man. it' s like a big market and we just walked around looking at the stuff sold there.
for the rest of the days, we played with the children adn had fun. They are all so loving and we absolutely have no problems playing with them. It's like.. u can be walking and some kid will just run up and hug u. The sisters and teachers are very nice as well. it's like.. i dunno, i just felt that the school is filled with lots and lots of love.
It's something i've nv felt before in any of our local schools thus far. Our schools are like simply education institutes and not schools. It's at teuk thla where i really experienced what a school is.
We had lots of fun teaching and playing with the children. The children were like grooving to the music and we just joined in. Halfway, one of my friend ripped his shorts cos the kids were pulling his shorts and he squat unknowingly. HAHA
Then, we simply grooved along to the music for abour 2 to 3 hours? the teachers had fun too and kids were either grabbing us, pushing us to the floor to kiss us, climbing all over us, hugging us etc etc.
They are all so sincere and innocent. The kind of feelings that i feel when i'm with them is different from the kind of feelings i felt when i deal with local children. It's like worlds apart and i am already missing my times with the children there. They ARE REALLY children with a childhood. although i know that they may nt necessary be living in the best conditions, but the kind of contentment, happiness, warmth, joy they have simply spreads to you and fill you with lots and lots of love.
In singapore, i'm not a kids' person. But there, i just loved every moment i spend with the children.
The place is very breezy as well and i spend most of my free time either playing with the children, or just sitting down at the court or hall and enjoying the breeze. We all agree that we will never have the luxury of doing such things back in singapore, that is why all the more i enjoyed myself. It's not like being emo back in singapore, but over there, it's all about enjoying life.
Enjoying life there and then, relishing my life, enjoying every single second, minute that i have.
It's like just simply experiencing the moment, the present, there and then, without anything to worry about, without anything to fret, to think etc.
It's really enjoying life at its best.
Every single moment of it.
I really don't know how long more i'll have to wait before i get to enjoy such activities again.
The only thing i was pissed about is that i fell ill.
That totally ruined my day.
I hate the feeling. and the worse part is that i fell ill almost on the 2nd or 3rd day.
so i was like stoning, expressionless and slow.
Lethargic and easily irrtable at the slightest thing.
But i guess it's just nice there, it's still much more bearable than compared to singapore.
But nonetheless, i won;t be surprised if there are pp who mistook my expressionless-ness as being pissed. Well, in actual fact, i am.
Pissed for being such a wuss.
Shopping is good.
Cos i've been there before,
so i bought little, mostly books about their history and a few toys for nephews and niece.
The best souvenir i got was a small pot.
It's something so local, something that i've been wanting since lokun, but have been unable to get hold of, cos it's soooo local, pp don't sell them.
BUt luckily, one of the school staff knew i wanted one, so she gave one to me.
It's something i really like. my most treasured souvenir of so many trips.
Cos it cannot be bought by money, it's hand made by the locals, given as a gift by a local and is unique in all ways.
Just like the experience and the trip itself.
:)
for the rest of the days, we played with the children adn had fun. They are all so loving and we absolutely have no problems playing with them. It's like.. u can be walking and some kid will just run up and hug u. The sisters and teachers are very nice as well. it's like.. i dunno, i just felt that the school is filled with lots and lots of love.
It's something i've nv felt before in any of our local schools thus far. Our schools are like simply education institutes and not schools. It's at teuk thla where i really experienced what a school is.
We had lots of fun teaching and playing with the children. The children were like grooving to the music and we just joined in. Halfway, one of my friend ripped his shorts cos the kids were pulling his shorts and he squat unknowingly. HAHA
Then, we simply grooved along to the music for abour 2 to 3 hours? the teachers had fun too and kids were either grabbing us, pushing us to the floor to kiss us, climbing all over us, hugging us etc etc.
They are all so sincere and innocent. The kind of feelings that i feel when i'm with them is different from the kind of feelings i felt when i deal with local children. It's like worlds apart and i am already missing my times with the children there. They ARE REALLY children with a childhood. although i know that they may nt necessary be living in the best conditions, but the kind of contentment, happiness, warmth, joy they have simply spreads to you and fill you with lots and lots of love.
In singapore, i'm not a kids' person. But there, i just loved every moment i spend with the children.
The place is very breezy as well and i spend most of my free time either playing with the children, or just sitting down at the court or hall and enjoying the breeze. We all agree that we will never have the luxury of doing such things back in singapore, that is why all the more i enjoyed myself. It's not like being emo back in singapore, but over there, it's all about enjoying life.
Enjoying life there and then, relishing my life, enjoying every single second, minute that i have.
It's like just simply experiencing the moment, the present, there and then, without anything to worry about, without anything to fret, to think etc.
It's really enjoying life at its best.
Every single moment of it.
I really don't know how long more i'll have to wait before i get to enjoy such activities again.
The only thing i was pissed about is that i fell ill.
That totally ruined my day.
I hate the feeling. and the worse part is that i fell ill almost on the 2nd or 3rd day.
so i was like stoning, expressionless and slow.
Lethargic and easily irrtable at the slightest thing.
But i guess it's just nice there, it's still much more bearable than compared to singapore.
But nonetheless, i won;t be surprised if there are pp who mistook my expressionless-ness as being pissed. Well, in actual fact, i am.
Pissed for being such a wuss.
Shopping is good.
Cos i've been there before,
so i bought little, mostly books about their history and a few toys for nephews and niece.
The best souvenir i got was a small pot.
It's something so local, something that i've been wanting since lokun, but have been unable to get hold of, cos it's soooo local, pp don't sell them.
BUt luckily, one of the school staff knew i wanted one, so she gave one to me.
It's something i really like. my most treasured souvenir of so many trips.
Cos it cannot be bought by money, it's hand made by the locals, given as a gift by a local and is unique in all ways.
Just like the experience and the trip itself.
:)
back
Finally back from Cambodia.
So many things experienced,
so many things learnt.
About life,
about humanity,
about love,
about selflessness,
about sacrifice,
about warmth.
A totally overwhelming experience,
enriching, inspiring, motivating.
So many things i've felt but are unable to write them down in words,
so many things i've thought about,
experienced,
reflected.
Such experiences taught me about life more than anything else.
一个了旅途的开始，
一个旅途的结束。
是另一个路程的开始。
So many things experienced,
so many things learnt.
About life,
about humanity,
about love,
about selflessness,
about sacrifice,
about warmth.
A totally overwhelming experience,
enriching, inspiring, motivating.
So many things i've felt but are unable to write them down in words,
so many things i've thought about,
experienced,
reflected.
Such experiences taught me about life more than anything else.
一个了旅途的开始，
一个旅途的结束。
是另一个路程的开始。
Monday, December 15, 2008
cambodia
Off to cambodia i go tonight.
Hopefully all will turn out well and fine,
everything'll be smooth and everyone'll have a gd time, make gd friends etc.
Hopefully all turns out well and my worries are just the results of being overly paranoid..
Somehow i can't type in proper grammar etc.
pardon me.
pray that all goes well.
Hopefully all will turn out well and fine,
everything'll be smooth and everyone'll have a gd time, make gd friends etc.
Hopefully all turns out well and my worries are just the results of being overly paranoid..
Somehow i can't type in proper grammar etc.
pardon me.
pray that all goes well.
Interesting stuff i noticed
Veron commented that Yousuke's teeth looked sharp and pointy.
haha.
Dentist's delight.
Went to take a look at it in detail..
WAH..
He's got a peg lateral incisor.
That is,
Malformed lateral incisor,
usually genetic cause.
That made his lateral incisor look smaller, and hence pointy,
Since it is next to his canines which are pointy to begin with,
He has a very carnivorous look.
Viola.
Haha.
This is what we call: Microdontia.
Usually, words with a dontia relates to teeth.
Alternatively,
He might have 2 primary/deciduous( laymen terms=baby) lateral incisors which are not shed and retained.
thus, they look smaller, cos baby teeth are generally smaller.
P.S: lateral incisors are the 2 teeth next to ur 2 central big teeth, one on each side.
Dental notation, we call them #12 and #22 according to quadrants.
Wooohoooo..
hahaha
haha.
Dentist's delight.
Went to take a look at it in detail..
WAH..
He's got a peg lateral incisor.
That is,
Malformed lateral incisor,
usually genetic cause.
That made his lateral incisor look smaller, and hence pointy,
Since it is next to his canines which are pointy to begin with,
He has a very carnivorous look.
Viola.
Haha.
This is what we call: Microdontia.
Usually, words with a dontia relates to teeth.
Alternatively,
He might have 2 primary/deciduous( laymen terms=baby) lateral incisors which are not shed and retained.
thus, they look smaller, cos baby teeth are generally smaller.
P.S: lateral incisors are the 2 teeth next to ur 2 central big teeth, one on each side.
Dental notation, we call them #12 and #22 according to quadrants.
Wooohoooo..
hahaha
Sunday, December 14, 2008
itch
This part of my palm and little finger is itching.
But i cannot find the exact spot to scratch.
This is so irritating.
ARGH
But i cannot find the exact spot to scratch.
This is so irritating.
ARGH
bird
Bird: #(@*#(*#()@*( basically just loads of noises and sounds)
Me: Whey whey whey. Don't be so noisy!
Bird: &#(@)*#(@*#
Me: WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEY. SHHHHH.
Bird flies away.
peace resumes.
Me: Whey whey whey. Don't be so noisy!
Bird: &#(@)*#(@*#
Me: WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEY. SHHHHH.
Bird flies away.
peace resumes.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
guneng
Looking out of the window,
i saw this lady,
who knows what she's doing, staring at my cat from a distance,
then standing there, dunno wth she doing.
then as my cat walks away, she walks away too,
then stopped to look at fatty,
then walk away.
Oh my goodness,
if she dare to touch him, i'll shout from my window and say:
" bloody lady dun u mess with my cat!"
lol.
luckily, fatty's got 4 legs and he's a big hum ji.
so he'll run away before i do that.
and now,
i hear my neighbour calling my cat's name..
bloody freaked out...
wth is he calling my cat and how the hell he knows its name?!!!
OMG.
guneng u better be able to differentiate who is ur owner and nt be a traitor,
later he feed u to his dog,
though i noe the dog's smaller than u. HAHA
puny and scrawny dog with 2 pigtails. HAHAHA
i bet the dog has identity crises.
haha
i'm nt biased against dogs.
lol
i saw this lady,
who knows what she's doing, staring at my cat from a distance,
then standing there, dunno wth she doing.
then as my cat walks away, she walks away too,
then stopped to look at fatty,
then walk away.
Oh my goodness,
if she dare to touch him, i'll shout from my window and say:
" bloody lady dun u mess with my cat!"
lol.
luckily, fatty's got 4 legs and he's a big hum ji.
so he'll run away before i do that.
and now,
i hear my neighbour calling my cat's name..
bloody freaked out...
wth is he calling my cat and how the hell he knows its name?!!!
OMG.
guneng u better be able to differentiate who is ur owner and nt be a traitor,
later he feed u to his dog,
though i noe the dog's smaller than u. HAHA
puny and scrawny dog with 2 pigtails. HAHAHA
i bet the dog has identity crises.
haha
i'm nt biased against dogs.
lol
TV shows
It's amazing how watching this new korean medical drama can inspire me to continue working in the years to come,
Well, i've been rather addicted to little nyonya for some time now.
But i think that Qi yu wu should be replaced by that jap photographer instead.
I just don't really fancy that Q guy.
Nonetheless, i've been munching on some nyonya kueh for sometime.
woohoo!!
Bring on the KGs.
Will try and shake them off in cambodia.
WAHAHAHAHA.
give me a dozen more kuehs man.
And well, i think my dad kinda likes rainie's new taiwan drama on channel U.
Heh.
starstruck i guess.
Well,
I'm so motivated by the korean drama!
haha.
TV shows are good.
Well, i've been rather addicted to little nyonya for some time now.
But i think that Qi yu wu should be replaced by that jap photographer instead.
I just don't really fancy that Q guy.
Nonetheless, i've been munching on some nyonya kueh for sometime.
woohoo!!
Bring on the KGs.
Will try and shake them off in cambodia.
WAHAHAHAHA.
give me a dozen more kuehs man.
And well, i think my dad kinda likes rainie's new taiwan drama on channel U.
Heh.
starstruck i guess.
Well,
I'm so motivated by the korean drama!
haha.
TV shows are good.
mumbai
Tuesday is the day.
Going CAMBODIA AGAIN!
Somehow after the mumbai bombing etc,
i keep feeling and having morbid thoughts for the past week.
Alamak. choy choy choy.
But then again, what if?
The what if is always present.
Hai..
Let there be no mumbai-like tragedies again.
I wan mambo.
Going CAMBODIA AGAIN!
Somehow after the mumbai bombing etc,
i keep feeling and having morbid thoughts for the past week.
Alamak. choy choy choy.
But then again, what if?
The what if is always present.
Hai..
Let there be no mumbai-like tragedies again.
I wan mambo.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
phone phone
I seriously need to get a new phone.
Totally sick of switching from phone to phone becos i've lost my contacts.
Then realising that there are unread msgs in THE OTHER phone?
Bloody shit
And at the same time be scared of blasting my fingers off with that N80 lousy pok.
New phone by this week end i swear.
An ugly, durable phone which 'll love residing in my bulging pencil case
Totally sick of switching from phone to phone becos i've lost my contacts.
Then realising that there are unread msgs in THE OTHER phone?
Bloody shit
And at the same time be scared of blasting my fingers off with that N80 lousy pok.
New phone by this week end i swear.
An ugly, durable phone which 'll love residing in my bulging pencil case
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
*#()@*#()@*# WAH LAO NO.2
I cannot believe how rude she can be.
Hello,
this is my home, at least RESPECT ME PLEASE.
We gave u enough freedom, much more than what others give their maids.
I bet even if you choose to fly to the moon and see if neil armstrong is there,
or hold a party at home to welcome martians to earth,
my parents won't give a damn about it.
At least we close BOTH eyes when you talk on your phone daily as and when you wish,
Wa lao, ma jiam bak jiu pak jiao.
I know my dad is a stamp collector,
but i never expect my family to bak jiu tiak stamp.
NOT question you when you took more off days that you're supposed to.
IF you think i have a problem with my math,
I guess you are wrong.
Don't make me use algebra to trump you and show you basic MATHEMATICS.
When i can use my fingers and count perfectly fine.
Excuse me, i pass my maths ok, if you think i'm such a dim wit who doesn't even know that there are 10 fingers on my hand.
And please
At the very least,
Give me a decent reply when i'm talking to you nicely.
I don't expect such rude replies and NOT EVERYDAY.
And please, stop questioning me and telling me what to do.
My home is not a montessori although i know there are many around in this estate.
I don't need diapers anymore ok, i use the loo and i clean up.
At least i make sure i clean the toilet AND THE TOILET BOWL.
NOT ONLY CLEAN THE FLOOR AND NOT THE TOILET BOWL.
At least i can differentiate the toilet bowl which needs daily cleaning apart from the fish bowl or my own rice bowl.
This is my home and i know what i want to do and should do.
I don't need someone to tell me and QUESTION ME?!
Not interrogation leh, aunty.
Or that i should do this or do that.
Come on, you think wad?! Play school ah.
You think playing role reversal is fun ah.
And bloody stop acting in front of my parents.
MY house is not victoria concert hall or explanade.
At least i know that my roof is FLAT and not spiky.
Act friendly and show concern to me then be rude to me when nobody's home?!!
Thank you very much, but i don't fancy domestic abuse,
not when i feel like i'm the target.
I'm damn bloody pissed i need to get this off my chest.
One more time and i'm gonna kick up a big fuss at home.
IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS AND YOU TELLING THEM TO CHANGE THE MAID!
YES..
Change THE Maid.
Seems like mission impossible.
But nevermind,
i like being 007.
Who cares, since my house is esplanade.
ARGH!!!
I'm petty, but i cannot take it anymore!!
argh argh argh..
Hello,
this is my home, at least RESPECT ME PLEASE.
We gave u enough freedom, much more than what others give their maids.
I bet even if you choose to fly to the moon and see if neil armstrong is there,
or hold a party at home to welcome martians to earth,
my parents won't give a damn about it.
At least we close BOTH eyes when you talk on your phone daily as and when you wish,
Wa lao, ma jiam bak jiu pak jiao.
I know my dad is a stamp collector,
but i never expect my family to bak jiu tiak stamp.
NOT question you when you took more off days that you're supposed to.
IF you think i have a problem with my math,
I guess you are wrong.
Don't make me use algebra to trump you and show you basic MATHEMATICS.
When i can use my fingers and count perfectly fine.
Excuse me, i pass my maths ok, if you think i'm such a dim wit who doesn't even know that there are 10 fingers on my hand.
And please
At the very least,
Give me a decent reply when i'm talking to you nicely.
I don't expect such rude replies and NOT EVERYDAY.
And please, stop questioning me and telling me what to do.
My home is not a montessori although i know there are many around in this estate.
I don't need diapers anymore ok, i use the loo and i clean up.
At least i make sure i clean the toilet AND THE TOILET BOWL.
NOT ONLY CLEAN THE FLOOR AND NOT THE TOILET BOWL.
At least i can differentiate the toilet bowl which needs daily cleaning apart from the fish bowl or my own rice bowl.
This is my home and i know what i want to do and should do.
I don't need someone to tell me and QUESTION ME?!
Not interrogation leh, aunty.
Or that i should do this or do that.
Come on, you think wad?! Play school ah.
You think playing role reversal is fun ah.
And bloody stop acting in front of my parents.
MY house is not victoria concert hall or explanade.
At least i know that my roof is FLAT and not spiky.
Act friendly and show concern to me then be rude to me when nobody's home?!!
Thank you very much, but i don't fancy domestic abuse,
not when i feel like i'm the target.
I'm damn bloody pissed i need to get this off my chest.
One more time and i'm gonna kick up a big fuss at home.
IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS AND YOU TELLING THEM TO CHANGE THE MAID!
YES..
Change THE Maid.
Seems like mission impossible.
But nevermind,
i like being 007.
Who cares, since my house is esplanade.
ARGH!!!
I'm petty, but i cannot take it anymore!!
argh argh argh..
Monday, December 8, 2008
WAH LAO *()*@#&@*$
I don't know why i've got so much to do for project as compared to others.
Wah lao..
somemore the 3 objectives is so hard to find stuff one lor.
GREAT....
i dunno why i tio the 3 while others got only 1 to do.
wa lao.
i tot i said i can help out, but like ALL COME UNDER ME?!
WAH LAO!
Bad- mood on top of my bad mooded day
Wah lao..
somemore the 3 objectives is so hard to find stuff one lor.
GREAT....
i dunno why i tio the 3 while others got only 1 to do.
wa lao.
i tot i said i can help out, but like ALL COME UNDER ME?!
WAH LAO!
Bad- mood on top of my bad mooded day
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
FP test
I have no idea what kind of friendship you call this.
I hope it was just a matter of fact that you forgot.
But this is the second time this has happened.
And i find it hard to find trust in this.
You said you will help me, but what i find somehow tells me otherwise.
If it was made known that i won't be available during the feedback session,
and that important info like super obvious info was made to the class.
NOBODY SAID A SINGLE THING TO ME.
SO i guess almost whole class knows that *** is coming out EXcEPT ME?!
THanks a lot man.
right,
and i have to realise it on the day of the test when i overheard other people talking about it. 30 mins before the test.
And i had to ask again and what those people who knew my reason for absentism was:
"Huh? U were not here?"
perhaps i'm just so insignificant in class,
perhaps people really forgot,
perhaps people thinks otherwise, which i hope i'm just thinking too much on my part.
Yes,
it contributes only 1.25% to the final test.
But what mattered wasn't the grades.
It was how i am being dealt with.
Tell me how to trust again.
I tried to... and now it's gone.
Thanks for letting me realise who my friends really are.
Things hasn't changed afterall.
I just need this kinda things to remind myself again.
A lesson learnt,
will NOT let it happen again.
Tougher, but i'l learn to rely on myself,
just like how things were.
I hope it was just a matter of fact that you forgot.
But this is the second time this has happened.
And i find it hard to find trust in this.
You said you will help me, but what i find somehow tells me otherwise.
If it was made known that i won't be available during the feedback session,
and that important info like super obvious info was made to the class.
NOBODY SAID A SINGLE THING TO ME.
SO i guess almost whole class knows that *** is coming out EXcEPT ME?!
THanks a lot man.
right,
and i have to realise it on the day of the test when i overheard other people talking about it. 30 mins before the test.
And i had to ask again and what those people who knew my reason for absentism was:
"Huh? U were not here?"
perhaps i'm just so insignificant in class,
perhaps people really forgot,
perhaps people thinks otherwise, which i hope i'm just thinking too much on my part.
Yes,
it contributes only 1.25% to the final test.
But what mattered wasn't the grades.
It was how i am being dealt with.
Tell me how to trust again.
I tried to... and now it's gone.
Thanks for letting me realise who my friends really are.
Things hasn't changed afterall.
I just need this kinda things to remind myself again.
A lesson learnt,
will NOT let it happen again.
Tougher, but i'l learn to rely on myself,
just like how things were.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
tired
I'm tired.
Tired of all that has happened,
Tired of all that is happening,
Tired of all that is going to happen.
I'm really tired.
Tired of all that has happened,
Tired of all that is happening,
Tired of all that is going to happen.
I'm really tired.
闯祸了
Oh my goodness,
i just realised something i've done wrongly ONLY NOW!
OH my goodness, this is bad.
Pissed my classmate off rather badly.
SHould have remembered that the doc is not supposed to be circulating, but i just forgot abt it totally when i happily copied and pasted the entire year 1 folder to my juniors.
Issue of copyright.
If i'm her i'll be super mad too.
How ah..
What should i do?
Oh no....
闯祸了
i just realised something i've done wrongly ONLY NOW!
OH my goodness, this is bad.
Pissed my classmate off rather badly.
SHould have remembered that the doc is not supposed to be circulating, but i just forgot abt it totally when i happily copied and pasted the entire year 1 folder to my juniors.
Issue of copyright.
If i'm her i'll be super mad too.
How ah..
What should i do?
Oh no....
闯祸了