Lousy

I feel so lousy.

Things hasn't been working out well for me i guess.

First, my unit broke down...

so got to sit somewhere where the slow speed handpiece(drill) works.

Then... redid my gold crown...

And then lost my gold sprue, which got sucked into the machine and cost like almost more than half the amt of gold i bought, so it's abt 80 plus dollars for that 3.6 grams.

Went through a hell lot trouble.

Found it back.

ok..

next..

porosity in the gold crown. AGAIN

and it doesn't help when i put in so much effort and the doc said: i wouldn't dream of giving this to my patient."

Then...

wanted to ask a doc to check my work.. was walking, this classmate saw me.. and walked quickly behind. As i called: er doc, she shove her work under his nose.. cut queue. Thanks man. just what i need."

On top of that,

got a B for my perio test which i put in so much effort too, scraping every piece of calculus and making sure i did a gd job.

And.. on top of that, i revised and studied and wrote notes for radiology.

But then. screw up at the practical test.. sooo..

that's an F and a REDO.

Other than that,

i have some other irritating classmates who seem rather keen to tip my mood balance to lousy.

Things aren't turning out as well as before..

I don't know what is wrong.

Put in so much effort.. but things just don't reflect..

I really did, and i've always been told by others that i have high expectations from myself..

So then again.. what is going on?

Maybe i'm just decieving myself.

I just pray that things will make a turn for the better.

:(