thank you

Had a wonderful birthday.

Not a super happening one,

But still, all the well wishes, presents, birthday cards made me feel so so so contented.

Special thanks to S19 peeps who never forget my birthday,

And to CSI peeps who made tonight so memorable.

And also to many many many many more who sent me birthday wishes.

I feel so fortunate to know them all.

Thank you very much.

:)

I really appreciate it.

There's too many people for me to thank personally,

so i hope they can all feel my heart felt thanks.

Thank you :)

Rainbow and 21st

I feel so contented to see the beautiful rainbow today evening.

Somehow it made my week seem slightly better.

Been feeling rather down for some time...

Kinda glad the rainbow's here.

:)

Marks the last day of my teen-hood.

Tml shall be the first day of adulthood.

Happy 21st to myself in advance.

T.T

I got another C for pharmaco.

Hai.

I don't know what i am doing.

anti-biotics

I am so dead for pharmaco.

I've just re-read my notes, though the test is over.

And i can only remember them when i look at them.

After that...

I recall only 50%.

Am i really that bad?

I studied since chinese new year till yesterday for today's test.

how...

I do not know.

Oh my. hai.

:(

I want to cry.

I really don't know what i'm up to ever since end of last year.

My grades are getting from bad to worse.

Then worst.

Today's pharmaco test....

I started VERY EARLY.

but i still couldn't remember so many things,

so much, so much.

I really don't know what is wrong.

Last year, never have i seen anything worse than an A-.

Now...

I'm seeing b- and C!

Working as hard,

But getting more and more stupid i guess.

So demoralising.

I know i shouldn't be concern about grades.

But if i don't even know the basics well...

what's there to talk about knowing other stuff.

And i admit i'm knowing much much less than i ought to.

I don't know what is wrong with me.

I am so screwed up..

Not even god can help me.

愛在

I like Fang Da Tong's songs.

But especially this particular one.

In this kind of evening,

this kind of setting,

with this kind of nostalgic feeling.

How nice.


愛在

買了菜 她跟他慢慢的炒著菜
他為她趕回家 走得快
愛無處不在 可是 呼 之 卻 不 來

小陽台 她拿走死掉的小盆栽
他對著啤酒杯 等下載
愛無處不在
可是 到 處 有 悲 哀
愛在 大街上 小路上 每個人海
誰卻愛在小島上 不願離開
難道 愛在不該愛的時候才愛
就算 百步以外 總有愛在 愛在

我愛在黃昏看誰的瀏海
妳愛在清早打誰的領帶
我們都要愛
偏偏無法同在 不能明白 只能夠期待
愛無處不在

那是愛
到頭來也發現 這是愛
流痕微笑的 都是愛
管它好與壞 總是 呼 之 卻 不 來

雪花白 永遠都渴望看 桃花開
梁山伯辜負了祝英台
在何年何代 總是 到 處 有 悲 哀

愛在 陽光下 燭光下 每點塵埃
誰卻愛在黑暗裡 不願離開難道
愛在不該愛的時候才愛
就算 百步以外 總有愛在 愛在

我愛在黃昏看誰的瀏海
妳愛在清早打誰的領帶
我們都要愛 偏偏無法同在
不能明白 只能夠期待
愛無處不在

從來微風都靠樹枝搖摆
從來種子都靠春泥破開
所有人世間的美好 都存在
就算看不到都 依然存在
在意料之外

我的女孩 妳快走過來
愛在期待 (愛在 愛在)
無處不在
我們無處不在

愛

我愛在黃昏看誰的瀏海
妳愛在清早打誰的領帶
我們都要愛 偏偏無法同在
不能明白 只能夠期待

我愛在樓下找誰的門牌
妳愛在途上靠誰的胸懷

我們都要愛 偏偏分開無奈
不能明白 只能夠期待愛
無處不在

English(engrish) vs chinese(cheena-pok)

With the cessation of GP in 2006.

It spells the end of horribly days for me.

But it marks the start of poor grammar and vocabulary days.

Help.

i really can't speak proper engrish without making !!! grammar errors.

And i am so turned off by it.

Engrish.

hai..

I shall speak more Engrish and not be a cheena pok.

Malu-ed

A funny accident:

表姐：哇，你看那辆摩托车，那么big!! should be a harley i think.

Me: WA. so big... what motorbike is that?

表姐: dunno leh, might be a harley or a very very big bike.. not sure. but must be a very big bike.

表姐夫 assumes that it is a BIG motorbike.

表姐夫：是咯，好像 tank！is it traffic police motorbike?

我：哇，1， 2， 3， 4， 5， 6。 有六个灯！！！

大家便在车里议论纷纷，讨论为什么那辆motorbike那么大。

As the lights turns green and we drove nearer, we all went silent.

Then all of us burst out into laughter.

WAH LAO!!! SIAO LIAO!!!

There was a car behind the motorbike la!!

What we saw were the front lights of the car, as well as the front lights of the bike.

From our previous view from across the traffic junction，the motorbike looked as if it has six front lights.

The bike, as you see, was right in the middle of the car's framework, thus it looked like there's 6 lights.

表姐: .wah lao.......( and she went silent) (cos she's too malu)

Me and 表姐夫: WAHAHAHAHHA. wth. siao la.. that angle really lor, none of us saw the car.. chey.. tot what... ordinary bike la... we were still guessing dunno what, tank-like-bike, traffic police etc etc..)(*@(mailto:!%5E$&%5E@&#@*()*!(#&*(@^$@*&$#_(@*&*(Y$ and on we continue as we commented and laughed at 表姐.

Chey...

Wa lao...

Malu leh..

In order to protect the identity of those involved and to maintain confidentiality.. the parties involved are named as 表姐 and 表姐夫 and me.

HAHA!

papers and more papers.

This year..

full of 21sts.

Hai.

Sad thing is,

i don't even get to celebrate mine.

Tentatively, only a small get together with some SOW pp after like.. hmm almost 1.5 years i guess?

my goodness.

I don't even get to celebrate with my cousins nor my family.

Unless you include books and papers and notes and stress.

Maybe it's a sign i should include them as my family members.

It falls on 26. and holla. 2 end of module tests then.

And then.. 27. holla. more to come.

then 2nd. holla! extra lessons and 3 hr test.

Then.....

HOLLA!!!

4 BIG PAPERS.....

right...

they say last sem was suppose to be the worst in entire 4 yrs.

I don't agree.

This sem is the worst.

Desiderata

'If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.'
-Desiderata

I love this.

So true, yet so tough in today's rat race.

Perhaps putting down all these burden is the way to make life more beautiful and enjoyable.

Perhaps being ordinary is good too.

But how do you draw the line between being comfortable with being yourself and being complacent?

How do you not succumb to external pressures?

How do you retainyour own dignity when people digs at your mishaps?

hmmmm.

i wonder.

i seriously do.

I guess the grass is always greener on the other side.

I guess i'm still trying to take a look at our own grass patch before looking at others'

weekend

What a weekend.

Wasted a lot of time.

Shitty.

If only weekends are longer,

exams are not so soon.

Fewer tests.

Life will be much better i guess.

Injured cat episode 2

My cat got injured again.

&*(&@&^&$@.

This time round, his skin got ripped off again.

Only that it's nearer the tail than before and smaller as well.

1 cent coin size.

But still..

Heartache ah..

Hai..

Things just doesn't seem to be improving this year somehow.

Bad things seem to be happening rather often.

Good things not as much.

:(

Nvm... i shall try to be more optimistic.

Stick to my new year resolution.

Stop whining.

Fireballs

I marvel at my own naive.

I marvel at the selfishness of human beings.

I am awed by the rudeness of people.

As well as how easily i TRY to trust people.

Luckily life has its own ways of helping us see things,

like the lights that light up the streets at night.

You see the TRUE COLOURS of people.

Somehow i am still puzzled at why i trusted him when my intuition right from year 1 told me i should stay away.

Luckily whatever happened yesterday woke me up.

I must have been blind.

Luckily i've made my stand clear,

And made my voice heard.

This SHALL NOT happen again.

I need to be assertive and STOP being BO CHUP.

Cos i realise when you bo chup, others think it is alright to do these things to you since you never seem to get angry.

I have a temper and a attitude.

And i am no longer afraid to show it.

I have had enough.

I am not going to be miss goody good shoes anymore if they ever step on my toes again.

I am not going to care what they are going to say behind my back like the way they talk about others,

no am i going to be afraid to tell them how i feel, STRAIGHT IN THE FACE.

But yes,

i will be assertive, NOT agressive.

Nor will i stoop to their level in an attempt to boost my own confidence like how they try to make their sad soul feel better about life.

I have what i need, i have what i want.

I don't need to see how to, nor find ways to make myself feel more comfortable about myself.

I've had enough.

And i am pissed off.

Luckily, i have fantastic friends supporting me all the way,

Sometimes i really wonder how i'm going to survive without them.

Goodnews is...

FOD is going to move.

To containers at the carpark near anat hall.

Closer to science= closer to friends.

THAT is good news.

I can't wait to graduate. Once i graduate, i WILL NEVER LOOK BACK AT ALL.

I won't even miss these days or anything at all.

In fact, the earlier i leave, the happier i will be,

Just like how happy i am when i'm having hols cos it means ZERO OF SCHOOL.

I am looking forward to 2011.

Bad day

Today is just one of my worst day in school ever since school started in year 1.

I finally find the reason NOT to give anymore chances.

And i finally have decided that i shan't try to please anyone anymore.

When i don't recieve the basic respect a person should have.

When i don't have the right to my own privacy,

When i feel that i've given enough chances and enough is enough.

When there can be people seeing things happen and yet not stand up for me and try to side the culprit.

When the trust is broken, MORE THAN ONCE.

When i see only selfishness in their eyes.

But it's times like this,

I am glad i have people around me to make a bad day much better,

To make my anger, sorrows, exasperation diminish to 50% of the original level,

To brighten up my day.

Thank you. :)

P.S: thanks veron! i felt so much better after reading ur smses. :)

School....

I wish i had more time.

I wish i hadn't slack my hols off.

Maybe i shouldn't even have gone to cambodia.

Now...

Mad rush for time to revise, lab work and upcoming tests before my exams in 4 weeks time.

Help.

i'm sp gonna die for pathology. it's so foreign to me.. and reading it is like so demoralising.

Pharmaco... Antibiotics and adverse drug reactions are killing me.

Microb.. Bacteria names and etc. AND IMMUNOLOGY! OMG.

Dental materials, components, properties, advantages, disadvantages, manipulation technique, name, mechanism of action.. Oh my goodness.

Not to mention

radiology test, endodontics test, DM practical test, Perio..so screwed up for it.

And my RP, still yet to finish my denture and special trays and immediate denture.

ITC: all my preclinical prerequisites. I doubt i can finish on time to start clinics. Oh no...

And i need to start looking for patients now.

yes...

If you have loads of dental problems, need a crown, have gum disease, decay, and what not...

Or know someone with these,

Please help me keep a lookout for them.

The worse the condition, the better.

But that is subjected to having the time to come for appointments which could be rather frequent. Time is an issue for many, as well as the commitment.

Cos many patients do disappear and that means we need to start ALL OVER AGAIN.

Treatment plans are usually sequential, that explains why we need patients with loads of problems, and loads of time, so we can do sequential treatment to ensure high efficacy of the treatment results and lower risks of prolapse of dental conditions.

Best candidates, retirees, housewives, maids, friends, students, parents, elderly.

Student treatments are usually cheaper than outside and fret not,

Our work needs to be assessed by our doctors and professors before we are allowed to proceed with each step.

That means, don't be afraid that we'll give you substandard work. We'll be rather screwed up with the profs and asked to redo before delivering it to the patients.

So.. keep a look out ok?

:)

Thanks.

Panic

I'm starting to feel the stress kicking in.

This is so not fun at all.

Last year this time, i know my stuff at my fingertips. well more or less.

This year this time...

I'm still trying to figure out what i've learnt.

Yeah like what my cousin in law says: That bad ah"

It is.

Help

obesity

Perhaps it's because i haven't went ot pai tai sui ( as what jiaqi says).

Somebody( random OBESE kid) scolded me bastard for no apparent reason yesterday.

Wth.

I was just walking beside him at the cashier's counter and made sure i didn't knock onto him or anything leh.

Well, I didn't really bother, going to the toilet was first on my list.

After i came out, i stood and looked at him and shook my head.

" Hai... predisposition to hypertension, diabetes, stroke, acute myocardial infartion, glaucoma, gangrene."

Wait a min..I wasn't cursing him.

Just trying to make myself feel better that i shouldn't be too bothered with someone with possibly so many troubles to come.

Just trying to be nice, to myself and er.. without really saying mean things to him or doing anything mean.

I feel really ,much better after that.

Luckily he was standing too far to hear all these.

Oops.HAHA