Exhaustion knows no boundaries.
Stress have no limits.
Time is always never enough.
I am tired.
I have so many things to complete.
Using my eyes to the extend that they start to tear.
Not a helpful thing.
I need caffeine IV drip.
Or perhaps caffeine pills.
Should have gotten them when i was in US 2 years ago.
Stock them up.
lol..
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Cario down
I ran today, around the neighbourhood.
Of course, i took my own sweet time.
I finished up my cario report.
One thing down, Oral bio is next.
And i shall start revision proper already.
Not much outings i can possibly attend anymore.
Wait for me.
2 months will pass by really soon.
Of course, i took my own sweet time.
I finished up my cario report.
One thing down, Oral bio is next.
And i shall start revision proper already.
Not much outings i can possibly attend anymore.
Wait for me.
2 months will pass by really soon.
Monday, January 28, 2008
War within
It's amazing what stress can do to a person.
A unseen force.
Targets my stomach and intestines.
First is indigestion, then constipation.
After that, Lao Sai.
Funny noises coming from my tummy, as if it is a choir.
Swishing and swirling noises.
The sensation of forces from within, as if the bacteria are raging a war and throwing grenades all around.
The atomic bomb within explodes, accompanied by a wave of tsunami within.
Not forgetting excessive greenhouse gas contribution.
Argh.
Unhealthy feeling
Uncomfortable.
My internals are raging a war with me.
I hope my cat doesn't faint when he pass by the toilet.
But i do hope that after hearing all the war sounds and after effects of war, the lizards will realise i'm too dangerous for them to handle and leave me alone.
A unseen force.
Targets my stomach and intestines.
First is indigestion, then constipation.
After that, Lao Sai.
Funny noises coming from my tummy, as if it is a choir.
Swishing and swirling noises.
The sensation of forces from within, as if the bacteria are raging a war and throwing grenades all around.
The atomic bomb within explodes, accompanied by a wave of tsunami within.
Not forgetting excessive greenhouse gas contribution.
Argh.
Unhealthy feeling
Uncomfortable.
My internals are raging a war with me.
I hope my cat doesn't faint when he pass by the toilet.
But i do hope that after hearing all the war sounds and after effects of war, the lizards will realise i'm too dangerous for them to handle and leave me alone.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Ignore me
Wonder if what done is right, and what wrong was wrong.
Reached the junction.
Crossed the barrier.
Never looked back.
But what ever happened keeps haunting.
Addition things, worries, obligations, responsibilities.
Roles to play, things to do, people to help, people to answer to.
Who then answers my questions?
Who can sit down and listen to what i have to say.
See what i have within?
Without despise nor pity.
Who can do so without judgement?
Even so, am i ready?
The past keeps haunting, the future seems uncertain.
The bad thing about being too independent at times.
I am tired.
I have always been doing things for a reason, be it known to people or not. Even what colour i want my blog to be.
I just want to do something without any reason at all.
Even for once.
Exhausted. Fatigued.
Who understands when even i have no clue.
About so many things happening.
I feel that i lack something, something which i don't even know it myself.
The key.
What is it.. what powers does it behold.
Escapism seems alluring.
But it is never the way out.
I need a break.
I hope to be a kid all over again.
Find myself back again.
But i have not much time left.
More things are coming my way.
Not a question of whether i will but a matter of whether i can.
I need the key.
I am fine. Ignore me.
The lock seems strong, but it awaits the key, before it truly understands the real meaning of its existance.
Reached the junction.
Crossed the barrier.
Never looked back.
But what ever happened keeps haunting.
Addition things, worries, obligations, responsibilities.
Roles to play, things to do, people to help, people to answer to.
Who then answers my questions?
Who can sit down and listen to what i have to say.
See what i have within?
Without despise nor pity.
Who can do so without judgement?
Even so, am i ready?
The past keeps haunting, the future seems uncertain.
The bad thing about being too independent at times.
I am tired.
I have always been doing things for a reason, be it known to people or not. Even what colour i want my blog to be.
I just want to do something without any reason at all.
Even for once.
Exhausted. Fatigued.
Who understands when even i have no clue.
About so many things happening.
I feel that i lack something, something which i don't even know it myself.
The key.
What is it.. what powers does it behold.
Escapism seems alluring.
But it is never the way out.
I need a break.
I hope to be a kid all over again.
Find myself back again.
But i have not much time left.
More things are coming my way.
Not a question of whether i will but a matter of whether i can.
I need the key.
I am fine. Ignore me.
The lock seems strong, but it awaits the key, before it truly understands the real meaning of its existance.
tired.
Just got home after a long day out.
And i still have loads yet to be completed. I have no life.
I hate it.
Cario report is taking so much darn time and it is so wad the hell useless.
Crap, loads of crap.
I hate cario.
SIMPLY HATE CARIO
And i still have loads yet to be completed. I have no life.
I hate it.
Cario report is taking so much darn time and it is so wad the hell useless.
Crap, loads of crap.
I hate cario.
SIMPLY HATE CARIO
Saturday, January 26, 2008
hmmm. reflections
Just as i dislike my life now as a student sometimes, i suppose i should give credit to my classmates around me too.
Definitely not fair if i don't do that.
I know none of them will be reading this, but i still would like to thank many of them.
For bringing smiles to my face when i am stressed and down.
For giving me help when i needed it.
For asking me how i was when i am ill and etc.
For playing along with me with all the silly jokes and what not.
For talking to me and asking me for lunch occassionally.
For saying Hi and acknowledging my prescence.
For talking to me and trying to make small conversations, esp when i am those who open up really slowly to people.
For listening to my woes at times.
Simply for helping me lead a easier life.
For this, i want to thank so many of them.
I realise i've been obscured by the negativity of some black sheeps around.
I realise i've been trapped in a vicious circle i've created for myself.
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, `Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
I recalled reading this in the bible. It is kinda true.
Perhaps i should look at things differently.
Look only at the good, the beautiful. Ignore the nasty, the foul.
Maybe i need to try?!
Definitely not fair if i don't do that.
I know none of them will be reading this, but i still would like to thank many of them.
For bringing smiles to my face when i am stressed and down.
For giving me help when i needed it.
For asking me how i was when i am ill and etc.
For playing along with me with all the silly jokes and what not.
For talking to me and asking me for lunch occassionally.
For saying Hi and acknowledging my prescence.
For talking to me and trying to make small conversations, esp when i am those who open up really slowly to people.
For listening to my woes at times.
Simply for helping me lead a easier life.
For this, i want to thank so many of them.
I realise i've been obscured by the negativity of some black sheeps around.
I realise i've been trapped in a vicious circle i've created for myself.
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, `Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
I recalled reading this in the bible. It is kinda true.
Perhaps i should look at things differently.
Look only at the good, the beautiful. Ignore the nasty, the foul.
Maybe i need to try?!
My secret hobby as a dental student
I just boiled my teeth collection.
Yeah, you've got it right.. ONE AND A HALF JAR FULL OF HUMAN TEETH.
With the entire set of equipment ready to go, i went to rinse my teeth thrice with water.
Then i placed them in a steamboat pot( those with 2 partitions which my mum found un-used at some corner)
Then, i poured dettol and some water into the pot.
TADAH....the fire starts to burn, the water starts to boil. Total time taken = 10 minutes.
After which i rinse the COOKED teeth.
TO MY HORROR, the BITS OF HUMAN FLESH remain UNCOOKED AND STUCK TO THE ROOTS.
WTH... i didn't know that thin layer of flesh takes longer than 10 minutes of boiling.
Now i have to think of new ways to get rid of it.
Imagine the amount of poisonous fumes i have to inhale in.. not forgetting that mercury is present in amalgam.
Good gracious, dettol fumes and mercury vapour?
Lucky i didn't do it in the kitchen, i did the boiling at some open area at the back yard.
Now they are out on newspapers doing their sun tanning.
Hope they dry soon, so i can pack them up and bring to school to ask Miss Han how to deal with stubborn human flesh that remains stuck on the teeth.
They are like about 2 kg?
Hai..
After that, i guess i will make use of my holidays to sort them out according to molars, incisors and what not.
Brr.. troublesome, but i like it.
Haha.. my secret fetish as a dental student.
I love my course, absolutely.
P.S: I said COURSE.
Yeah, you've got it right.. ONE AND A HALF JAR FULL OF HUMAN TEETH.
With the entire set of equipment ready to go, i went to rinse my teeth thrice with water.
Then i placed them in a steamboat pot( those with 2 partitions which my mum found un-used at some corner)
Then, i poured dettol and some water into the pot.
TADAH....the fire starts to burn, the water starts to boil. Total time taken = 10 minutes.
After which i rinse the COOKED teeth.
TO MY HORROR, the BITS OF HUMAN FLESH remain UNCOOKED AND STUCK TO THE ROOTS.
WTH... i didn't know that thin layer of flesh takes longer than 10 minutes of boiling.
Now i have to think of new ways to get rid of it.
Imagine the amount of poisonous fumes i have to inhale in.. not forgetting that mercury is present in amalgam.
Good gracious, dettol fumes and mercury vapour?
Lucky i didn't do it in the kitchen, i did the boiling at some open area at the back yard.
Now they are out on newspapers doing their sun tanning.
Hope they dry soon, so i can pack them up and bring to school to ask Miss Han how to deal with stubborn human flesh that remains stuck on the teeth.
They are like about 2 kg?
Hai..
After that, i guess i will make use of my holidays to sort them out according to molars, incisors and what not.
Brr.. troublesome, but i like it.
Haha.. my secret fetish as a dental student.
I love my course, absolutely.
P.S: I said COURSE.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Belated New year post
Actually, i realise i've not made any blog posts about the transition from 2007 to 2008.
I must really say that 2007 has been a great year for me, of course, there are the ups and downs of it too.
The passing of relatives which evoked painful memories for my family, the release of my A level results, appplication to university and not being able to get into my dream course initially, working at secret recipe, working at NJ, going hong kong once again, learning swimming and of course, i made many many wonderful new friends and found new friends within my old friends too.
I suppose, the year has really passed by so quickly that it's a little scary, but i do agree that it has been one of the most relaxed times i've ever had for such a long time. No stress or anything.
Working in NJ has been a pleasure and i am now more appreciative of my teachers, i also made even better friends with hsiu tzu and got to know miss yeo, miss lim, miss tay and many more teachers and make good friends with them. Life is really great in NJ. It's one of the most stress-free times i've ever had.
Talking about these, memories of NJ times do really keep flashing back in my mind and somehow, i realise how much i miss my life and friends back there. Life is stressful, but definitely fun.
Got back my A level results and am kinda glad of what i've obtained, it was relief to know that my hard work has paid off, the tears, the sleepless nights, the headaches, worries etc seem to be worth it after all.
Applied for UNI, and went for internship etc. It was quite a busy period for me, but i enjoyed myself a lot. The impact when i got to know i didn't get into dentistry is something i will never forget, i didn't know that it meant so much until i lost it. It was just.. terrible and absolutely depressing. Definitely not something which i can describe with words. It's not as if i didn't prepare myself for it. I WORKED for it, went for internships no matter how tired i was, moulding all those teeth, carving, bending wires till 12 am kinda thing, and trying to prep myself up for the interview etc. I really worked for it. And i worked hard.
Fate really has it's way of making people come together and make people know what goals they have in their life. I am thankful that i found mine at 19. To think about it, i was just beginning to come out of the " WHY DIDN'T I GET IN?!!!" mode and was actually beginning to enjoy life as a science students with my newly made friends when the magical call came. It was like a god-send thing. Couldn't believe myself at all to know that i actually got in.
But it was then i realise the importance of friends. I should say that the people i met in SOW are simply great. if not for them, i bet life would have been so much harder now for me. And i always look forward to going out with them etc. It always makes me feel better to know that i have friends in science when i'm having a hard time with my current faculty.
The occasional meet ups with SOW, s19 members and other friends do brighten my day. It's like, how should i put it... hmmm..
After a long day in school and a long week ahead of me, i just feel drained sometimes, but it't these meetups that inject new energy into me, i always enjoy my lunch with them and i very much would like to have longer lunch breaks so we can chat more. Sometimes i feel that my schedule is so packed and what not, that i do fear that i lose contact with my friends, since we don't meet up as often as before, esp the newly acquinted ones, my old friends are just as important too.
I don't want to lose them.
Trust me, it REALLY makes things more comforting to me. Some things are better felt than said. Rag was a success, and the team spirit i saw was OOOoohh.
The life in dentistry hasn't been really smooth flowing i suppose, as expected, i guess it's full of politics perhaps, lucky thing is that it is still not as bad now. I just hope that things stay the way it is or improve and not make a turn for the worse. I mean, let's all make 4 year a smooth flowing one. Somehow, when i look at the photos they take, i seriously wonder why am i not having as much fun as them? Why am i not part of the whole thing, just like how i was in jc?
Perhaps, i just don't survive well in a cliquish environment. Perhaps, i'll just envy occasionally and get on with life.
i do have my own life too.
My cousin got married at the end of the year, and i am simply so happy for her. It was quite fun and touching as we looked through the videos and photos that we took. I'm thankful that she found her happiness and i am even happier to be able to meet up with them ever so often. They really dote on me and i am really really really really thankful for that.
I became closer to my parents as well, as i talk more to my mother as compared to JC periods where i will be busy with school stuff and mugging. These chats have enriched my life and changed my perspective of the world etc. These are lessons that i will never learn elsewhere and i am thankful that i have such wonderful parents.
Hong kong trip was great to, ate a lot and shopped a hell lot, sad thing is that i have not been able to remove the additional kilos i gained from that. Jia lat.
Oh, and i learn how to swim. I mean FINALLY!!
All in all,
2007 has been a wonderful and absolutely great year to have.
Family, friends, studies and career.
I thank God for giving what i have now and i don't ask for more.
i only hope that 2008 will be a great year too.
I must really say that 2007 has been a great year for me, of course, there are the ups and downs of it too.
The passing of relatives which evoked painful memories for my family, the release of my A level results, appplication to university and not being able to get into my dream course initially, working at secret recipe, working at NJ, going hong kong once again, learning swimming and of course, i made many many wonderful new friends and found new friends within my old friends too.
I suppose, the year has really passed by so quickly that it's a little scary, but i do agree that it has been one of the most relaxed times i've ever had for such a long time. No stress or anything.
Working in NJ has been a pleasure and i am now more appreciative of my teachers, i also made even better friends with hsiu tzu and got to know miss yeo, miss lim, miss tay and many more teachers and make good friends with them. Life is really great in NJ. It's one of the most stress-free times i've ever had.
Talking about these, memories of NJ times do really keep flashing back in my mind and somehow, i realise how much i miss my life and friends back there. Life is stressful, but definitely fun.
Got back my A level results and am kinda glad of what i've obtained, it was relief to know that my hard work has paid off, the tears, the sleepless nights, the headaches, worries etc seem to be worth it after all.
Applied for UNI, and went for internship etc. It was quite a busy period for me, but i enjoyed myself a lot. The impact when i got to know i didn't get into dentistry is something i will never forget, i didn't know that it meant so much until i lost it. It was just.. terrible and absolutely depressing. Definitely not something which i can describe with words. It's not as if i didn't prepare myself for it. I WORKED for it, went for internships no matter how tired i was, moulding all those teeth, carving, bending wires till 12 am kinda thing, and trying to prep myself up for the interview etc. I really worked for it. And i worked hard.
Fate really has it's way of making people come together and make people know what goals they have in their life. I am thankful that i found mine at 19. To think about it, i was just beginning to come out of the " WHY DIDN'T I GET IN?!!!" mode and was actually beginning to enjoy life as a science students with my newly made friends when the magical call came. It was like a god-send thing. Couldn't believe myself at all to know that i actually got in.
But it was then i realise the importance of friends. I should say that the people i met in SOW are simply great. if not for them, i bet life would have been so much harder now for me. And i always look forward to going out with them etc. It always makes me feel better to know that i have friends in science when i'm having a hard time with my current faculty.
The occasional meet ups with SOW, s19 members and other friends do brighten my day. It's like, how should i put it... hmmm..
After a long day in school and a long week ahead of me, i just feel drained sometimes, but it't these meetups that inject new energy into me, i always enjoy my lunch with them and i very much would like to have longer lunch breaks so we can chat more. Sometimes i feel that my schedule is so packed and what not, that i do fear that i lose contact with my friends, since we don't meet up as often as before, esp the newly acquinted ones, my old friends are just as important too.
I don't want to lose them.
Trust me, it REALLY makes things more comforting to me. Some things are better felt than said. Rag was a success, and the team spirit i saw was OOOoohh.
The life in dentistry hasn't been really smooth flowing i suppose, as expected, i guess it's full of politics perhaps, lucky thing is that it is still not as bad now. I just hope that things stay the way it is or improve and not make a turn for the worse. I mean, let's all make 4 year a smooth flowing one. Somehow, when i look at the photos they take, i seriously wonder why am i not having as much fun as them? Why am i not part of the whole thing, just like how i was in jc?
Perhaps, i just don't survive well in a cliquish environment. Perhaps, i'll just envy occasionally and get on with life.
i do have my own life too.
My cousin got married at the end of the year, and i am simply so happy for her. It was quite fun and touching as we looked through the videos and photos that we took. I'm thankful that she found her happiness and i am even happier to be able to meet up with them ever so often. They really dote on me and i am really really really really thankful for that.
I became closer to my parents as well, as i talk more to my mother as compared to JC periods where i will be busy with school stuff and mugging. These chats have enriched my life and changed my perspective of the world etc. These are lessons that i will never learn elsewhere and i am thankful that i have such wonderful parents.
Hong kong trip was great to, ate a lot and shopped a hell lot, sad thing is that i have not been able to remove the additional kilos i gained from that. Jia lat.
Oh, and i learn how to swim. I mean FINALLY!!
All in all,
2007 has been a wonderful and absolutely great year to have.
Family, friends, studies and career.
I thank God for giving what i have now and i don't ask for more.
i only hope that 2008 will be a great year too.
wassup yo.
Got the shock of my life when i looked at my legs and arms today.
The skin was peeling off like mad, and it looks so flaky and dry.
Not that i've got sun burn or anything, but i guess is the public pool's effect, cos i went swimming last night.
Gosh. i did my first 10 laps.. ok. 5 minutes for a lap.. that is like snail's pace. so i will buck up and train more.
It's fun, though a little un-nerving at first when i first entered the 1.8m zone.
Ok. i shall jia you.
Oh yeah. i'm meeting veron next wed to swim.. how cool..
haha..
The skin was peeling off like mad, and it looks so flaky and dry.
Not that i've got sun burn or anything, but i guess is the public pool's effect, cos i went swimming last night.
Gosh. i did my first 10 laps.. ok. 5 minutes for a lap.. that is like snail's pace. so i will buck up and train more.
It's fun, though a little un-nerving at first when i first entered the 1.8m zone.
Ok. i shall jia you.
Oh yeah. i'm meeting veron next wed to swim.. how cool..
haha..
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Thanks veron and JQ
Thanks everyone for your concern. Esp veron and jiaqi... thanks load girls.
Haha. i guess the world outside is really political.
Am still thinking of how to learn to reject people.
The problem is that i am not tactful enough la.. Hai..
But at least i'm glad today is a better day than yesterday.
And tomorrow i only have to go schoo from 8 to 11, cos oral bio is cancelled and anat tutorial is pushed forward and shortened to 1 hour.
Isn't this simply great.
Anyway, thanks a lot for your concern veron and jiaqi. It really brightens up my day. :)
I will jiayou de. You all must jia you too.. 7 more semesters to go....
I will make it through. And yeah, sec sch and uni friends are still the best.
No joke.
:)
Haha. i guess the world outside is really political.
Am still thinking of how to learn to reject people.
The problem is that i am not tactful enough la.. Hai..
But at least i'm glad today is a better day than yesterday.
And tomorrow i only have to go schoo from 8 to 11, cos oral bio is cancelled and anat tutorial is pushed forward and shortened to 1 hour.
Isn't this simply great.
Anyway, thanks a lot for your concern veron and jiaqi. It really brightens up my day. :)
I will jiayou de. You all must jia you too.. 7 more semesters to go....
I will make it through. And yeah, sec sch and uni friends are still the best.
No joke.
:)
Monday, January 21, 2008
Finally onto the next lap, amalgam filling
Finally managed to finish my MOD cavity prep today. And i even managed to do a amalgam filling!
Finally..
But well, I started off the MOD with wenyi, and now, all because of my MOD, she is like finishing her amalgam and i am just starting on mine.
Bleah.
Anyway, had dinner and together with my mum, we kinda nag at my Dad about his smoking habit, and we used sarcasm, persuasion etc.
Hopefully he gets it into his mind, if not.. hai. don't know lah.
Makes me REALLY REALLY pissed sometimes.
alright. Flu's getting better. hopefully everything this week will just be the way i wished it'll be.
And so will my 4 years be.
Finally..
But well, I started off the MOD with wenyi, and now, all because of my MOD, she is like finishing her amalgam and i am just starting on mine.
Bleah.
Anyway, had dinner and together with my mum, we kinda nag at my Dad about his smoking habit, and we used sarcasm, persuasion etc.
Hopefully he gets it into his mind, if not.. hai. don't know lah.
Makes me REALLY REALLY pissed sometimes.
alright. Flu's getting better. hopefully everything this week will just be the way i wished it'll be.
And so will my 4 years be.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
ARGH
Oh my..
Been falling sick every so frequently ever since school started last august.
Now is sore throat and runny nose again.
What the..
AND i have so much things to do and complete.
Someone save me.
Nevermind, the best way out is always through.
Been falling sick every so frequently ever since school started last august.
Now is sore throat and runny nose again.
What the..
AND i have so much things to do and complete.
Someone save me.
Nevermind, the best way out is always through.
Week 1
I just burned my saturday off going to school to attent the ADSS talk. Ok la, quite interesting, maybe i shall attempt to go again next year. But it's tiring. I fell asleep a couple of times though.
Anyway, Met up with the rest of the penguins for dinner. Was quite funny as we talked. But too bad can't eat a lot.. cos i've been having indigestion for QUITE sometime. Constipation la... bleah.
ANd somehow my throat didn't feel right. And i am right! woke up with a sore throat.
And also with loads of work to do.. I think i'm going to die man.. shall chiong and chiong.
I really hope to get my life back man.. It's just the first week of school and i'm like.. bleah.
Alright. Wish me luck :)
I really hate to be blogging about school stuff 90% of the time. It's not as if i'm really comfortable about what i'm experiencing in this phase of my life. But it's like forming such a HUGE percentage of it.
Alright... shall work hard in term of many things and not only school work.
Let me hope that this week, my days are all going to end early.
Anyway, Met up with the rest of the penguins for dinner. Was quite funny as we talked. But too bad can't eat a lot.. cos i've been having indigestion for QUITE sometime. Constipation la... bleah.
ANd somehow my throat didn't feel right. And i am right! woke up with a sore throat.
And also with loads of work to do.. I think i'm going to die man.. shall chiong and chiong.
I really hope to get my life back man.. It's just the first week of school and i'm like.. bleah.
Alright. Wish me luck :)
I really hate to be blogging about school stuff 90% of the time. It's not as if i'm really comfortable about what i'm experiencing in this phase of my life. But it's like forming such a HUGE percentage of it.
Alright... shall work hard in term of many things and not only school work.
Let me hope that this week, my days are all going to end early.
Friday, January 18, 2008
OH no..
Oh no...
there is something wrong with my computer
HOW?!!!!
that touch pad cannot use!!!
Initially, i noticed that the arrow wasn't moving..
Then now it's moving oddly, and only in vertical directions,
THen it starts dancing on the screen.
Now it doesn't show any arrow nor detect my finger anymore.
SO.. using external mouse now..
HELP?!!!
gosh..
so so so worrying.
there is something wrong with my computer
HOW?!!!!
that touch pad cannot use!!!
Initially, i noticed that the arrow wasn't moving..
Then now it's moving oddly, and only in vertical directions,
THen it starts dancing on the screen.
Now it doesn't show any arrow nor detect my finger anymore.
SO.. using external mouse now..
HELP?!!!
gosh..
so so so worrying.
Phone-less day
Oh no...
I totally forgot that i was suppose to meet veron today.
And my phone was like.. No battery left.
Literally died on me.
Kinda amazed how i survived 1 day without the phone till 10 plus after i got home from tuition.
Almost died from shock.
total of about 10 miss calls and 7 unanswered msgs.
oh my on my...
No i know the importance of my phone.
Btw, veron.. sorry ah.. i really forgot..
Pai seh pai seh.
And gosh. i bought gray's anatomy today to study for anat. Nope, not the dvd. but the textbook.
And biochem was like trash.. a bit irritated that people around were all mumbling and some not paying attention. Prof's voice was like.. mellow.. cannot hear properly actually..
So.. had a hard time today.
bleah.
Going to start chionging for oral bio, cario, anat and physio soon.
9 more weeks to finals!!!
I totally forgot that i was suppose to meet veron today.
And my phone was like.. No battery left.
Literally died on me.
Kinda amazed how i survived 1 day without the phone till 10 plus after i got home from tuition.
Almost died from shock.
total of about 10 miss calls and 7 unanswered msgs.
oh my on my...
No i know the importance of my phone.
Btw, veron.. sorry ah.. i really forgot..
Pai seh pai seh.
And gosh. i bought gray's anatomy today to study for anat. Nope, not the dvd. but the textbook.
And biochem was like trash.. a bit irritated that people around were all mumbling and some not paying attention. Prof's voice was like.. mellow.. cannot hear properly actually..
So.. had a hard time today.
bleah.
Going to start chionging for oral bio, cario, anat and physio soon.
9 more weeks to finals!!!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Biochem test is finally over
Shucks la. yesterday blogspot screwed up. so my post wasn't up. so was my tag.
But yeah.
Biochem is finally over. close to 1 month of mugging.
I am finally free and liberated.
Woohoo..
But still.
Thurs got to meet my mentor, fri got tuition, sat got talk in sch and dinner appointment, sun got to meet cousin.
What a busy weekend.
But then..
It feels so good to be liberated.
Though i know i will be tied down again in 2 weeks time, or close to that.
By physio test.
And anat CA coming up.
Then before i know it.
My 1st year has ended.
How nice.
But yeah.
Biochem is finally over. close to 1 month of mugging.
I am finally free and liberated.
Woohoo..
But still.
Thurs got to meet my mentor, fri got tuition, sat got talk in sch and dinner appointment, sun got to meet cousin.
What a busy weekend.
But then..
It feels so good to be liberated.
Though i know i will be tied down again in 2 weeks time, or close to that.
By physio test.
And anat CA coming up.
Then before i know it.
My 1st year has ended.
How nice.
Monday, January 14, 2008
1st day of SEM 2
What a good start to my semester.
Feeling used. Maybe i'm thinking too much. But i've fulfilled my role as a friend, as a classmate.
I've kept to my words, and did what you wished.
Yet you wanted more.
More and more.
I've voiced my displeasures.
But a leopard never changes its spots.
History of Sem 1 repeats.
I have enough of it.
I'm sick of it.
Yes. UTTERLY THOROUGHLY SICK.
To the extend i'm starting to regret choosing this path.
I demand peace.
Leave me alone.
Feeling used. Maybe i'm thinking too much. But i've fulfilled my role as a friend, as a classmate.
I've kept to my words, and did what you wished.
Yet you wanted more.
More and more.
I've voiced my displeasures.
But a leopard never changes its spots.
History of Sem 1 repeats.
I have enough of it.
I'm sick of it.
Yes. UTTERLY THOROUGHLY SICK.
To the extend i'm starting to regret choosing this path.
I demand peace.
Leave me alone.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
School starts
Tml is the start of a crazy semester 2.
I mean crazy and i mean it man..
I have physio test, anat test, biochem test and oral bio test(i think so) this sem.
And on top of that, i have to finish my oral bio notebook, cario report.
And i still a MOD cavity prep un-finished since last OPtech.
Oh oh..
And my finals are like say.. in 2 month plus time?
That means i have so much things to revise, so much things to do. and so little time.
Help Help Help.
Don't blame me if i seem to disappear into thin air.
Say goodbye to me soon.
I mean crazy and i mean it man..
I have physio test, anat test, biochem test and oral bio test(i think so) this sem.
And on top of that, i have to finish my oral bio notebook, cario report.
And i still a MOD cavity prep un-finished since last OPtech.
Oh oh..
And my finals are like say.. in 2 month plus time?
That means i have so much things to revise, so much things to do. and so little time.
Help Help Help.
Don't blame me if i seem to disappear into thin air.
Say goodbye to me soon.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
School school school school.. shucks
I'm so tired i'm getting slacker and slacker.
This is so not good.
Maintain my aim..
School's starting. Tuition too.
I shall Jia you..
And mug hard.
But then, i need a break soon too.
To think about it, it's not coming soon.
Cos finals are in end march, on top of the tests i have monthly and my competency test for cavity prep(i.e. drillling)
Then tuition and all the what not commitments that always spring out of nowhere in the period of time when i am already tied up with work.
This means that i won't have much time left.
But to realise something,
Mugger has got NO life.
And i'm a mugger. Everybody knows that.
My life will most probably come from swimming i guess and perhaps running.
But then, my left knee joint and ankle are giving me problems again. Old injuries.
How to run.. not even with my NEW shoes. I WANT to run. but not physically fit yet.
Argh..
Shall not be so unsatisfied with life.
I shall start to count my blessings.
Hai. today is another day spent slacking. Wasted lots of time.
Shall chiong tomorrow.
This is so not good.
Maintain my aim..
School's starting. Tuition too.
I shall Jia you..
And mug hard.
But then, i need a break soon too.
To think about it, it's not coming soon.
Cos finals are in end march, on top of the tests i have monthly and my competency test for cavity prep(i.e. drillling)
Then tuition and all the what not commitments that always spring out of nowhere in the period of time when i am already tied up with work.
This means that i won't have much time left.
But to realise something,
Mugger has got NO life.
And i'm a mugger. Everybody knows that.
My life will most probably come from swimming i guess and perhaps running.
But then, my left knee joint and ankle are giving me problems again. Old injuries.
How to run.. not even with my NEW shoes. I WANT to run. but not physically fit yet.
Argh..
Shall not be so unsatisfied with life.
I shall start to count my blessings.
Hai. today is another day spent slacking. Wasted lots of time.
Shall chiong tomorrow.
Tired
I am so tired.
From the walking, from the mugging, from the late nights and lack of sleep, from the work i've yet to do, from other etc things that just aren't important but needs to be done.
I can't take it anymore.
The late nights and all...
All the things i have to do other than study.
Oh my...
I think i have aged like don't know what.
My organs will be aging prematurely if this continues.
I will be drained.. actually a little drained now.
But.....
I will find the strength to go on, move on.
Nothing will bring me down. And when i say nothing, i mean NOTHING.
Shall conquer biochem first.
Though a few days left.
I will do it.
At least it's good that when i went school today, i actually miss walking along the NUH corridor and doing my wax-ups and lab.
I will go on.
Strength i believe, is something that comes from within.
I have it.
I will find it.
Yes.
From the walking, from the mugging, from the late nights and lack of sleep, from the work i've yet to do, from other etc things that just aren't important but needs to be done.
I can't take it anymore.
The late nights and all...
All the things i have to do other than study.
Oh my...
I think i have aged like don't know what.
My organs will be aging prematurely if this continues.
I will be drained.. actually a little drained now.
But.....
I will find the strength to go on, move on.
Nothing will bring me down. And when i say nothing, i mean NOTHING.
Shall conquer biochem first.
Though a few days left.
I will do it.
At least it's good that when i went school today, i actually miss walking along the NUH corridor and doing my wax-ups and lab.
I will go on.
Strength i believe, is something that comes from within.
I have it.
I will find it.
Yes.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
A busy day
I'm so tired man..
Been to so so so many places today for the canvassing and ok la.. got an additional $170.
All in all, got a total amount of $470 on my part, in which $300 was collected together with one classmate.
Went back nj to pass report and then tuition.
NEVER MUG AT ALL.
I'm so screwed up.
Oh went back to school to pass my senior the box of teeth too. Got a new bottle from him.
Man.. His bottle really stinks like mad lor.. The stench was "OH SO OVer-POWERING" when i opened the jar. The toilet became a forbidden place.
Used lots and lots of Dettol to wash and rinse and wash and rinse it..
Finally it's better..... then..
I realise the teeth still got flesh stuck on it one lor.. and that means i'll have to gt a knife to scrap the tissues off ONE BY ONE?!!!
Wth..
Hopefully they'll all just drop off after i boil them..
And that means one more forbidden pot..
Rinse the whole bathroom with dilute dettol after that.. and guess what.. i think there's so much dettol the roaches came out of the sewer.. good time for me to show my BYGON skills.
Frantic spraying..
Haha..
Now got to consolidate all the clinics i've been to, those i've collected, those not in adn those not interested ones..
Better make a list for them.. easier.
Right.
Got to run, then finish up a bit of work.. wake up tml at 4am to chiong till 10 pm..
Wonder if i can last that long..
Always overestimate myself.. confirm cannot wake up one la. sian.
haha
Been to so so so many places today for the canvassing and ok la.. got an additional $170.
All in all, got a total amount of $470 on my part, in which $300 was collected together with one classmate.
Went back nj to pass report and then tuition.
NEVER MUG AT ALL.
I'm so screwed up.
Oh went back to school to pass my senior the box of teeth too. Got a new bottle from him.
Man.. His bottle really stinks like mad lor.. The stench was "OH SO OVer-POWERING" when i opened the jar. The toilet became a forbidden place.
Used lots and lots of Dettol to wash and rinse and wash and rinse it..
Finally it's better..... then..
I realise the teeth still got flesh stuck on it one lor.. and that means i'll have to gt a knife to scrap the tissues off ONE BY ONE?!!!
Wth..
Hopefully they'll all just drop off after i boil them..
And that means one more forbidden pot..
Rinse the whole bathroom with dilute dettol after that.. and guess what.. i think there's so much dettol the roaches came out of the sewer.. good time for me to show my BYGON skills.
Frantic spraying..
Haha..
Now got to consolidate all the clinics i've been to, those i've collected, those not in adn those not interested ones..
Better make a list for them.. easier.
Right.
Got to run, then finish up a bit of work.. wake up tml at 4am to chiong till 10 pm..
Wonder if i can last that long..
Always overestimate myself.. confirm cannot wake up one la. sian.
haha
Monday, January 7, 2008
Oh no.
I'm going to be so so so dead.. i rather that i've not slacked my first 2 weeks off and worked harder for my last 2 weeks.
I am so going to be dead for school.
I'm going to be such a goner for head and neck.
Biochem is killing me.
I still have yet to meet my tuition student, complete island wide canvasing and meet my alumni mentor.
What the shit.
1 more week to go.
1 more week left to live.
Argh.. i hope my holidays are longer.
Seriously
I am so going to be dead for school.
I'm going to be such a goner for head and neck.
Biochem is killing me.
I still have yet to meet my tuition student, complete island wide canvasing and meet my alumni mentor.
What the shit.
1 more week to go.
1 more week left to live.
Argh.. i hope my holidays are longer.
Seriously
1 Sem down, 7 more to go
I realise i've been blogging less and less.Esp over the holidays.
Is this considered good or bad?
I wonder.
Good perhaps because there's no school and i've lesser to complain about.
Bad mainly because it means that i'm either getting plain lazy, or starting to keep everything inside.
I'm amazed how i survived SEM 1.
I love dental school..
I just hate the mugging and politics involved.
7 more semesters and i'm out of here.
I will persevere.
Is this considered good or bad?
I wonder.
Good perhaps because there's no school and i've lesser to complain about.
Bad mainly because it means that i'm either getting plain lazy, or starting to keep everything inside.
I'm amazed how i survived SEM 1.
I love dental school..
I just hate the mugging and politics involved.
7 more semesters and i'm out of here.
I will persevere.
Shopping at queensway.
Woohoo.
Bought a pair of running shoes today. It's Adizero with orange strips or kinda.. all thanks to choon heng and JC and veron.. Hahaha
If not for this last minute find, i would have either given up my search for a nice pair or well, i would have settled for the VOMIT colour shoes at this " oh so poor service" place jsut directly next doors.
Haha. and it's kinda cheap.. 99 dollars, supr light( like i'm not wearing anything) and airy..
Nice nice nice...
Bought a shoe bag too. Just realised that the reason why the bag's so big is because it is for bbal shoes. But well, i intend to use it for my swimming too.
I shall learn how to tread water.. Veron ah.. i will learn it soon lor. u dun laugh at me.. hahahahahah
JC bought a pair of shoes too.. yellow!!! He's getting metro ah..
Choon heng was influenced by JC's taste somehow and got a pair of shoes which we physco-ed him to buy. veron bought FBTs!!
Man.. i need to make a comment about the FBTs.. The colours they have now are so so so NICE?!!!!!!!!!
you guys should really take a look. Absolutely chio.
But i still like my old black ones. hahaha
Anyway, we had great fun.
And i realise that this place at queensway sells really cute erm.. UNI-sex boxers? And 1 other shop selling nice dresses and tops.
But i'm not getting any la. Need to save money liao..
My school fees are due like this coming 25 Jan and it costs a freaking $8851 +.
Freaking ex, considering the fact that i just paid it in september and now i'm paying it again and when may comes, i'm going to pay for it once more.
Why are my school fees so ex? It's not like i'm using much of school resources, which i still have to pay for sometimes..
Gonna cut down on shopping etc and make exercise my new past time.
I'm loving swimming.. haha.
Hope i will love running too. I use to hate them.. and i think i still do.
Bought a pair of running shoes today. It's Adizero with orange strips or kinda.. all thanks to choon heng and JC and veron.. Hahaha
If not for this last minute find, i would have either given up my search for a nice pair or well, i would have settled for the VOMIT colour shoes at this " oh so poor service" place jsut directly next doors.
Haha. and it's kinda cheap.. 99 dollars, supr light( like i'm not wearing anything) and airy..
Nice nice nice...
Bought a shoe bag too. Just realised that the reason why the bag's so big is because it is for bbal shoes. But well, i intend to use it for my swimming too.
I shall learn how to tread water.. Veron ah.. i will learn it soon lor. u dun laugh at me.. hahahahahah
JC bought a pair of shoes too.. yellow!!! He's getting metro ah..
Choon heng was influenced by JC's taste somehow and got a pair of shoes which we physco-ed him to buy. veron bought FBTs!!
Man.. i need to make a comment about the FBTs.. The colours they have now are so so so NICE?!!!!!!!!!
you guys should really take a look. Absolutely chio.
But i still like my old black ones. hahaha
Anyway, we had great fun.
And i realise that this place at queensway sells really cute erm.. UNI-sex boxers? And 1 other shop selling nice dresses and tops.
But i'm not getting any la. Need to save money liao..
My school fees are due like this coming 25 Jan and it costs a freaking $8851 +.
Freaking ex, considering the fact that i just paid it in september and now i'm paying it again and when may comes, i'm going to pay for it once more.
Why are my school fees so ex? It's not like i'm using much of school resources, which i still have to pay for sometimes..
Gonna cut down on shopping etc and make exercise my new past time.
I'm loving swimming.. haha.
Hope i will love running too. I use to hate them.. and i think i still do.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Constipation
Have you ever felt that way?
The feeling of having a thousand billion words to say but it seems like all the words are trying to squeeze their way through that none gets out at all?
I have so much to say, so much to tell, so much to write.
I don't know how to start.
Argh..
It's a constipated feeling.
I shall blog more regularly to prevent this from occurring again.
The feeling of having a thousand billion words to say but it seems like all the words are trying to squeeze their way through that none gets out at all?
I have so much to say, so much to tell, so much to write.
I don't know how to start.
Argh..
It's a constipated feeling.
I shall blog more regularly to prevent this from occurring again.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
My last weekend of 2007
It has been a rather husy weekend for me.. haha.
Well, met up with S19 on sat at fadhli's house.. Oh My gosh.. his house is like so nice la.. and we had loads of fun, playing cards, eating and playing captain's ball...
I miss those old days back in NJ lor... life was much more stressful but definitely more enjoyable.
We went for pool before that and hai.. pool queen kena trash by veron lor. Guess my luck was just down la..
Sunday, went swimming and i am proud to say.. I finally know how to swim!!! or kinda.. hahah. But yeah. it was great. went to GIANT to do grocery shopping and then straight home to whip up a 4 dish meal for my parents..
I almost forgot how to cook. It's been a rather long time since i last cooked a proper dinner. Well, i just eat cup noodles when i'm home. more convenient and faster. haha
Just came back home from cousin's house.. went there for dinner and made tiramisu. After count down.. i felt kinda tired.. so came home.
Hahaha. actually i've got loads to blog, but feeling kinda lazy to write so much.. so i thought... just give a brief summary lah..
But saturday was so so so fun. One of my best weekends ever since school started lor.. S19 rocks lah.
Well, met up with S19 on sat at fadhli's house.. Oh My gosh.. his house is like so nice la.. and we had loads of fun, playing cards, eating and playing captain's ball...
I miss those old days back in NJ lor... life was much more stressful but definitely more enjoyable.
We went for pool before that and hai.. pool queen kena trash by veron lor. Guess my luck was just down la..
Sunday, went swimming and i am proud to say.. I finally know how to swim!!! or kinda.. hahah. But yeah. it was great. went to GIANT to do grocery shopping and then straight home to whip up a 4 dish meal for my parents..
I almost forgot how to cook. It's been a rather long time since i last cooked a proper dinner. Well, i just eat cup noodles when i'm home. more convenient and faster. haha
Just came back home from cousin's house.. went there for dinner and made tiramisu. After count down.. i felt kinda tired.. so came home.
Hahaha. actually i've got loads to blog, but feeling kinda lazy to write so much.. so i thought... just give a brief summary lah..
But saturday was so so so fun. One of my best weekends ever since school started lor.. S19 rocks lah.