Withdrawal

I've never imagined that such emotions will overwhelm me.

As i pack my lab table today. I realised that i will miss this place which i've spent my last 4 years.

All the hardship, all the tears, stress, quarrels, black face etc etc.

I've never imagined that i'll actually grow to be fond of it.

A sense of belonging? I do not know.

As much as i know that i'm gonna be happy to leave this place, i can't help but think that i might actually miss it.

I wonder why.

The day when i no longer have to call patients, no longer have to stay back till 0930pm to do lab work,  no longer can bitch with my classmates.

All the nonsense that we use to say to crack each other up,

all the pat on the back, slap on the butt to ask " eh, you ok or not"

and the late walk back to hall, the dinners together.

The ability of us to just show our emotions, pour our hearts out, cry our eyes swollen.

I think i will miss it.

There are good times, bad times. Good people, bad people.

I'm glad i've chosen the right people to be with,

no doubt a little later.

I think i might miss school afterall.

Last stretch.

Must work hard.

God bless.

Pray hard.

Coughs vs flu

Coughs are worst than flu.

It hurts like mad.

Internally.

Just like a heartbreak.


but instead, it's your lungs which are being torn apart.

Flu??

Chey...

Rub nose only wad.

Like massage.

Coughs are the worst of the lot.

Close your eyes, Clear your heart. Let it go

I love this phrase.

So apt at this point in time.

I've been brushing teeth for almost 3 months now.

Just like how initially the teeth seems so clean and your breath smells so nice...

Continuous brushing, brushing continuously.

Ain't a good thing sometimes too.

The teeth has started to develop NCCLs.

Instead of doing it till i see pulpal exposure....

I've decided to stop brushing.


Let the image of nice clean teeth remain.

History repeats despite all the synchronicity that has been happening all these while.

Perhaps it's just apophenia.

Teeth change, people change.

Let's move on.

School ended the way it started.

One full circle.

Now...

A new chapter awaits.

1 more term.

1 more exam

I shall cease to see brushing.

Life's gonna be good.

I believe so.

I hope so.

Focus.

No more hocus pocus.

Fatty

I miss my meow meow at home.

I think 1 week in school is the max i can take.

Weird

Feels weird.

Excitment, anticipation, butteflies.

Pericardium ache.


I have no idea why.

In the middle of reading an article,

Something like this strikes.

It's been a long time.

No. Not now.

Not when i'm so close to graduation...

No way.

Wait.

Let it wait pls.

Not an attack now.