to my cousin

Italy.

It must be a very nice place.

Have a good trip.

you. me. us.

I don't think i've ever told anyone about this before.

But i don't believe in the word US.

I believe in me, i believe in you.

But i seriously dun believe in the word us.

So what about us?

What makes people think that when they get married, they really become one?

How confident are they, that marriage is better than courtship, and the qns is... why do people get married in the first place?

I think it's just over-rated.

The goodness of marriage, the feeling of someone who supports you and all that.

I don't believe in any of those things.

Marriage seems so good, simply because people say it is.

But i think we usually look at the package without reading the fine prints.

I look at others,

I look at myself.

I think i enjoy my freedom more than anything else.

Call me selfish, say i'm weird.

I don't think i am willing to compromise my freedom for anything else.

And i certainly don't think i will ever like the idea of living with SOMEONE and having to put up with all the shit that person gives me etc.

Well, i'm not saying that i'm expecting to recieve shit all the time, but i don't think i am prepared to even recieve a wee bit of nonsense at all.

Put it simply. I hate restrictions.

And i don't think i'm those ever accomodating kinda person.

On top of that, i seriously suspect that deep down... i'll feel pretty sick of seeing the same person day in, day out.

I think.... many people will disagree with my extreme view on marriage.

Nevermind.

To each his own.

Like i've said previously..

I believe in you, i believe in me.

But i don't believe in us.

And nope, i've not been in any traumatic relationships or what so ever.

Maybe you can call it revelation.

Holidays

I feel much happier this year.

It's like.. i've let go of some burden.

I wanna like studying again.

I wanna enjoy what i'm studying again.

But then again.

I'm happy that i'm having a break now.

It's a break i really need before i get so drained, that i'd collapse.

It's been mentally straining for me.

Physically tiring.

Emotionally draining.

I'm glad i have this break.

I welcome it.

Somehow i like it that i can sleep till i wake up naturally.

I like it that i can eat dinner with my parents at the dining table, watch tv with them.

I like it that i get to talk to my mum before we sleep.

I like it that i get t watch tv.

such simple pleasures in life.

Somehow..

I think i'll enjoy myself very veyr much if i'm a tai tai

But i'm not born to live that kinda life.

But really.

I really envy tai tais.

i really do.