It's been a horrible week.
I feel lousy, i feel annoyed.
Thinking back,
I am starting to question myself how much have i really changed?
i wanted, and still want to leave the school in one intact piece.
But i see myself as a battered, torn, discoloured crumply piece of rag.
No longer the red vibrant piece of cloth which i first begun.
Would things be better if i've not accepted the offer?
Why are students so implicated into school matters....
Why can't they just let us study in peace?
Why can't everyone just appreciate one another.
Why can't everyone stop their attempts to try and step on each other to raise themselves higher?
Why can't everyone treat each other nicely at the beginning and not be rude just so they can make a statement?
Why can't people reciprocate kindness with kindness?
Why can't people realise that we are also in the same shit, we are all in the same situation and try adn help each other out?
Why can't people just stop what they're doing and reflect on the situation and try and change?
Why is it that everything which was done being taken for granted, and reciprocate that with selfish acts?
Why don't people just behave like adults,
like how people in a civilised society will behave as?
Instead of dwelling in the blame game,
instead of doing things for self benefit.
Why don't they see that we all have the same problems and helping each other out will be good?
Why don't we all see that we have a common goal?
I wonder if my decision was wrong to begin with.
I wonder if i would have made the same choice if i knew all these were waiting.
I am saddened by the fact that even i am starting to question myself.
If this is what i really wanted.
If i should even have worked hard to apply to come in..
politics, selfishness, etc etc
These are not my business.
i just want to come in a piece, graduate in one piece.
i just want to study.
i don't want all these. Just leave me alone.
Why can't that be achieved?
just get me out of here.
I am exhausted.
please spare me from all these.
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