Withdrawal

I've never imagined that such emotions will overwhelm me.

As i pack my lab table today. I realised that i will miss this place which i've spent my last 4 years.

All the hardship, all the tears, stress, quarrels, black face etc etc.

I've never imagined that i'll actually grow to be fond of it.

A sense of belonging? I do not know.

As much as i know that i'm gonna be happy to leave this place, i can't help but think that i might actually miss it.

I wonder why.

The day when i no longer have to call patients, no longer have to stay back till 0930pm to do lab work,  no longer can bitch with my classmates.

All the nonsense that we use to say to crack each other up,

all the pat on the back, slap on the butt to ask " eh, you ok or not"

and the late walk back to hall, the dinners together.

The ability of us to just show our emotions, pour our hearts out, cry our eyes swollen.

I think i will miss it.

There are good times, bad times. Good people, bad people.

I'm glad i've chosen the right people to be with,

no doubt a little later.

I think i might miss school afterall.

Last stretch.

Must work hard.

God bless.

Pray hard.