...

I feel kinda bad.

That u realise sometimes i do spend too much time working, mugging etc.

That i am spending lesser and lesser time with my parents, and friends especially.

I owe them a lot a lot.

My time etc.

Now that i am having float building..

I thought i would be more free.

But that doesn't seem to be the case.

Most of the time, i'm clueless as to what to do.

So i just try and find things to do.

But i find myself screwing things up.

Just today, I spilled paint.

Bad bad bad.

And i keep doing things slowly.

Work to be done in 1 day.

I took like 3 days?

Nono.

Not enough money, not enough funds.

hai.

And i feel guilty that i was unable to interact with siew, reg etc..

We got so much to catch up.

So much to talk about.

Just 1 year ago,

I was still a freshie.

Things were SO different.

I wasn't in dentistry 365 days ago.

Things have changed so much.

For the good, for the bad.

I just hope i didn't change.

:)

@nd day at float building and i suppose it's really good lah.

i find that i really get to know my classmates better( yeah, 1 yr late). But at least better than never.

I suppose perhaps it's becos we aren't so stressed about our studies etc.

And it's like one of the rare chances that i actually unwind myself.

laugh heartily.

well.. and i got to know the juniors wells.

somehow, i just felt that we need to do something for them.

cos they're new and the faculty's tradition always involves a certain degree of ragging.

And i don't really agree with this, cos some of the DOCTORS(yeah, ironically) don't behave according to the social schema of how a doctor should behave( gentle, benevolant, easy going, nice).

No, they are the direct opposite, some scolding vulgarities at us, showing off their authority for some, getting juniors to do silly and stupid things and laugh at it.

i think it can get rather demeaning.. and given my experience as a really NEWBIE last year, the more i felt that i know how they feel.

The more i feel that we should help them and do something about it.

Some of the doctors really piss me off.

Now, i feel that i will NEVER refer my patients to them, no matter how good they are.

Personality flaw will always be a personality flaw, and in my eyes, personality and character is more impt than how well they are able to do things. Poor character means poor character and it over-rides the rest.

So, yeah, I'll make sure i won't turn out like them.

AND i'll make sure i take GOOD GOOD care of my junior, just like how my seniors in my line treat me.

well, more days to go.

Hope i will enjoy float and get to know my classmates and the juniors better. :)

Yeah,

a change for the better.

Oh yeah..

and i really really am so touched by my cousin's gesture last night.

Cos i was doing night duty, and she and her husband went to buy supper and drive to sch to give me!!

wa. SUPER NICE. I'mr really touched.

Although i kinda asked them to( which is making me guilty) but the gesture of them driving down JUST to pass me food is just nice.

Well, i may not be close to my brothers, but at least...

I know i'm close to my cousins.

Luckily i have them in my life. if not i'll really be like the only child.

And that will be so kinda sad.

Thanks a lot Jie Jie. :)