Thoughts

Sometimes, I do wonder about certain things, certain issues...

And i am puzzled as to how things work and why certain things happen...

But perhaps as i grow older, i no longer have as much time to think about these.

Maybe that's why i no longer pursue it nor think about it anymore.

To the point where i don't even think it exists anymore.

Or perhaps that only applies to me.

I use to believe in certain things.

But as time passes, belief turns into disappointment.

Till the point where i don't believe in it anymore.

When things happen repeatedly.

I get tired.

I get numb, and i become indifferent to it.

I don't think it is a need anymore.

More like a want.

I don't trust it, nor do i believe that it will actually happen.

But sometimes perhaps there's still this flicker of hope in me.

And maybe that explains why i still think about it, though rather rarely.

Not sure whether should i be happy or not,

But even these rare occasions seem to be obscured by a thick layer of fog.

And are sometimes reduced to moments of staring into emptiness.

Perhaps.

One day, i won't even think about it.

Or maybe,

I won't even think that it exists

Or perhaps

I won't even know what it is anymore.

Nothing special about this, just some thoughts.
No need to read too deep into it.
Nothing special about it.