why

I don't know why.

Sometimes i feel that i'm not doing enough.

To fulfill my responsibilities, to improve in just anything.

I wonder if i am doing enough.

I just don't have the drive nor the mood to do so.

Perhaps that's complacency,

or i'm just satisfied.

Maybe i'm just escaping from it,

or that i don't want to face it.

Maybe i', afraid. but of what?

I do not know.

Maybe i don't care.

But that will be scary.

Perhaps i'm just being a self centered good for nothing.

Perhaps.

But i hope the last case is not the case.