envy

I'm envious.

For example...

Envious of how happening the others' life seems to be.

How much fun they seem to enjoy,

How vibrant their lives are,

Exactly the way a 20 year old should be spending.

Envious of how they can do so well and have their own life.

Envious of how young kids enjoy the attention from their parents and grand parents,

when as a kid, i didn't always have them.

Envious of how others seem to have no walls built around them and others,

But perhaps, this is exactly the reason why i'm shaped the way i am,

Moulded the way i am.

That 's what that makes me unique isn't it?

I think i need to count my blessings.

And be thankful for what i have.

Appreciate what i have,

and cherish.

Happiness is when you no longer seek to be happy.

I'll always remember what my friend told me.

On a lighter note,

Perhaps it's the weather and that i've not been drinking enough water,

Having a bit of nose bleeding episodes here.

Just last night,

I woke up because i realise i was kinda nose bleeding.

Not those waterfall kinda,

but more of trickle.

haha. right.

nose bleeding.

eew.