spark

Suddenly i thought of the scene slightly more than a year ago during SOW.

When i got the call, how happy i was, how siew and i screamed and then me, reg and siew simply hugged and cheered.

That call... that emotion...

somehow i seem to be losing it all. It worries me.

Why is it that i wanted it so much back then, the disappointment and it all.

Sometimes i go get the flame back,

but that's only once in a while... and it lasts not more than 2 days.

it shouldn't be like that.

What exactly went wrong? What happened?

Am i taking things for granted?

Am i tired of how things are?

Am i drained?

I really don't know

I would like to think of myself as a junior dentist, but it's just impossible.

I would like to take everyday as the first day of school,

but it just seems so tough.

Is it the workload, is it the stress?

Dis-illusioned sometimes.

I want to look forward to school and lessons.

I need to find the spark...

How can i find it, where is it?

I need to find my direction again.