CR and MI

Dental school.

When CR no longer equals to MI, it's like your passions are no longer there even when you're doing what you aspire to do..

And CR/MI slide is when you start questioning what you use to think...

And non working side interferences is when people who aren't helping you anyway tries to give u interferences in your work.

when school takes its toll on me.

Recurrent caries: Are the things i fear. Hidden from sight and it eats you slowly from within. Just like my doubts about myself.

i need to find all the CR present, no matter how good the shade selection has been. Good things are often hard to find.

Finding them is like discovering myself once more, behind all the facade of dentine colour, enamel colour.

If only CR contains all the fluoride releasing properties of GIC , then perhaps recurrent caries won't even occur and eats starts eating me away.

But to begin with, perhaps it wasn't the fault of the CR, but more of the dentine bonding agents. Perhaps there was leakage in the first place, just like how my stand wasn't as strong to begin with.

That's how bacteria gets to seep in, and how recurrent caries can start eating me away.

I hope i don't ever need a crown.

Cos when that happens, it's when all hopes of finding myself again seem to be lost.

And i start wearing a mask to hide myself from the others and i forget how i look originally.

Recurrent caries can occur, if i continue to allow myself to lose me.

And it becomes a vicious circle, when what is left, the core, the crown prep, gets eaten away.

That's when i lose what is remaining, my morals, my integrity, my principles.

It's scary.

Cos ultimately, when the crown can't even stay on..

The tooth gets extracted.

That's when my mind dies, emotionally, mentally, psychologically.

I hope i'll never need a filling, and NEVER a crown.

I won't allow myself to be extracted.

That's a dentist's worst nightmare.