Marriage

Today,

a classmate of mine brought in good news for us.

He proposed to his girlfriend.

To be honest, i was kinda shocked that he has made up his mind, he has decided who to be with for the rest of his life.

At this rather young age.

But it was then i realise,

Hey, we aren't THAT young anymore,

The girls are 21, the guys are 23, it's also about time to start finding someone to settle down with.

And what more hongkong isabella yeung gave birth when she hasn't even hit 21?!

And she's like freaking younger than me? WTH.

but yea, anyway,

it just seems too scary for me.

At this age,

i mean seriously.... what do we know?

Marriage, ROM, give birth? huh?

What are we prepared for? Are we really sure? Is that the RIGHT person?

When it comes to this kinda things,

I get super passive.

I don't think i've enjoyed myself enough,

I don't think a relationship is gonna make a big difference,

I don't think i'll die without a boyfriend or when i get dumped.

I don't think i'll stand that kind of behavioural limitations,

I don't know what's so great about being in a relationship,

I don't know what's so happy to have someone else in my life.

I don't see the excitment or joy in doing things that ppl in a relationship do.

And most importantly,

I don't see myself being attached.

And i am not exactly comfortable with the idea of being attached. The thought of it turns me off hugely sometimes.

heh heh.

To sum it off,

I don't think i am ready for it.

I must say while i am in disbelief about this, i kinda envy him that he has found his someone.

And i've got to admit that i do feel the pressure building up.

But, at the end of it all,

I think my mentality has to change somehow, someday...or i can get ready to live with my cat/cats in for the rest of my life.

Maybe life is not all about teeth, saliva , tongue, drills and books.

but i guess the biggest change in the future is..

everything else minus the books.

Perhaps, who knows for sure.

Maybe i'll get married tomorrow.

Heh..

Wad a BIG 'maybe.'

Not even in your dreams.

Fat hope.

Meow.

And don't be rude --> I'm not a lesbian.