how?

What i find myself telling others to do.

I don't know myself.

I don't know how to face it.

How to deal with it.

Or even talk about it.

I don't know how not to show it on my face,

How to pretend nothing has happened,

How to stay the same old me.

These changes.

I should have seen them earlier,

then perhaps things wouldn't have turn out this way.

I really don't know what to do.

Now and the days after, the years after.

It's something that i fear so much and i never thought it will actually happen.

I'm going insane soon.