Past week

The past week has been on of the worst in my life.

Yes. worse than the scary As.

I have no idea how i pulled through.

Worried, cried, blamed, felt despaired, fearful, lost and what not.

All sort of emotions, don't even know what i'm thinking back then and how exactly i felt.

Just blank out i guess.

Perhaps because my brothers were there that's why i was able to cope.

I have no idea how the hell i did it.

But i guess my emotions were all shown on my face that classmates came to ask me whether i'm ok and kinda.

Smses and calls of concern..

I really appreciate it.

Now that it's at least not as bad as before,

I'll make sure i'll not let history repeats itself again.

I know such things will happen no matter what,

sooner or later,

perhaps few years down the road,

it may happen again.

Perhaps just one or two more decades more and i'll have to deal with the most unbearable.

I don't know how i will be able to pull through...

And i don't dare to even think about it.

What must come will come one day.

Perhaps when that days really comes...

I may just lose my sanity.

I don't wish to think about that.

Cherish what i have now..

It's more impt than anything else