Utilisation?

Talked to a friend last evening.

Her words made my change my perspective about certain things, people and events that have been happening lately...

I'm not sure if this is actually happening.

But i hope we're on good terms not because of my current status.

And that it's not because it'll be beneficial to you or what.

I hope the situation now is not due to principle of utilisation and maximisation.

I hope it's based on sincerity and genuine friendship,

one which we both agree is very important and very precious.

But somehow,

it's starting to seem otherwise to me.

May this not be another futile attempt on my part.

I feel so silly, maybe i'm just expecting too much out of this.

Please prove me wrong.