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Been having the dejavu feeling since yesterday..

Somehow...

My timetable makes me feel so detached from the world...

Miss hanging out with my friends...

To an extend i wonder if i can even maintain a proper conversation with them..

When you don't meet people for too long,

You lose touch.

Already, i find myself drifting off from them.

Not good, not good.

I really miss my sec sch and jc days..

where laughter seems to surround me, where everything seems to be so enjoyable and i really get to be myself and do what i really wanna.

There are too many things i need to consider now that i rather i don't interact to avoid messing it up.

But this part within tells me to find the missing thing.

I'm finding it harder and harder to talk to people freely and comfortably.

I find it harder to talk about not serious stuff,

Cos perhaps i'm so detached i know nuts about what's going on in their life and that means nothing to talk about anymore.

Conversations gets a little trying and a little awkward.

I'm constantly working,mugging and what not.

My life's like going school, home, school, home.

I'm so drained and tired at the end of the day, all i want is a good bath and a good rest in bed.

i use to look forward to school in sec and jc.

I dread waking up every morning now.

Not much leisure, not much communication.

I'm finding it more and more difficult to be less serious.

I want to play,

i want to be not serious.

But..

how?

Perhaps, when we get somethings , we lose somethings too.

All that i remember vividly about my sec sch and jc days are the fun and crazy times. But all that i will remember in the future about the time now... I don't think there will be much stuff.

ps: cai, yeah, i do find myself detaching from you all leh, but i'm glad at least this blog lets me let you know what's going on here and i'm glad that i've got you guys all these while. :) I miss those good old days back in fhss.