Welcome the holidays

I am finally having my break.

After such a long time.

Went to vivo with regina and gosh.. i feel that the world has changed so much while i was mugging away fervently. Things have changed, the world has moved on. To come to think about it.. i was home since last monday, and stepped out of my premises only for 2 hrs on sunday and then it was exams all the way. As i count the amount of money that i've actually spent for these 2 weeks while i was mugging away, it's an alarming sum.

$5.70. That is excluding the fact that i spent an additional $32.60 AFTER my exams at vivo just now. That includes food for your info.

Sometimes i feel that i don't mug hard enough, i lack the drive. But this isn't the thing that i always hear from others. Sometimes i feel that i need to get a life, but i just can't seem to permit myself to indulge in these " luxuries".

I wonder what i would have felt if my effort is not being rewarded in terms of results. It would have been so disappointing.

But i suppose it's this period of time that i get really touched.

By the care and the concern that people have shown towards me, though i know i've been mugging and not giving them enough of my time that they deserve.

My parents have suffered the most.

But still, i'm really happy i have such great parents. My mom would actually stay with me and sleep in my room while i study, sometimes all the way till 1 am. Giving me food, brewing tonics for me, asking me to rest every now and then, checking to see whether i am alright.... and just so many things which she did really made me so happy to have come into this world.

There are many occasions when i really felt like giving up. It was tough, with the amount of workload to cover and the amount of time given. It was tiring and draining.

But i am glad i pulled through. And i am so happy to have so many people encouraging me all the way, with special credit to my cousins and ash (S19, you all dun come and create scandal ah).

And after such a long time, i'm relieved and glad to say that i've found friends in my fac. They are nice people, perhaps i was just too engaged with the negative aspects that i neglected the good ones back then. Life is going to be so much more enjoyable and bearable with them around now.

Actually to come to think about it.. I've been kinda detached from the outside world. Man..... i actually felt a little weird walking in science today after like erm....... i dunno how long.

I would really like to have my holidays started early. But then... I seriously hope i can do well for my viva this coming week. It's been a tiring journey to get the chance to go for the 20 minutes viva. I need to do well.

It's the one and only chance that i have in my life to prove to them that i am worthy of that distinction. And also a prove to myself that all the effort i've put in is worth it.

I'm proud to tell myself that i've worked hard. Whether or not the results for the other 2 subjects are going to turn out well, i'm happy that i did not waste my year 1 away.

It's been tough trying to get in and i won't allow anything to happen that will put me in jeopardy. It's too hefty a price to pay.

Still, thanks to all of you staying tuned.

Yes.. my holidays are coming. though not the standard 3 months but a meager 5 weeks, it's better than nothing at all.

Welcome the holidays!!!