vicious circle

Shag. tired. drained.

cui.

i know what i'm doing is wrong, and i know most probably those around are thinking that i'm bullying or what so ever.

Well, perhaps they don't know the whole story and don't know the whole issue.

so perhaps i seem like the one ALWAYS at fault.

but well,

i see no point in explaning myself or justifying to anyone. As long as i know my conscience is clear, i think i just let it be.

Though i know i most prob am in bad light now.

but nvm..

they just don't know me well enough.

hai, i miss my sec sch and jc classmates and friends.

Somehow i'm like going through a vicious circle.

If only I had someone like Cai in my class to listen and talk to me now.

if only there's someone who really knows and understands and perhaps feel the same way as i did.

float building starting next week.

I think i'll find my line senior and have a long chat with him and have a counselling session with him soon.

hope that i can trust him with that, since well, there isn't many pp around for me to do that to nowadays.

i feel that everything's like bottling up within and i can't take it anymore.

about the past year, about almost everything.

I don't know who to trust there, so i guess i'm taking chances.

hopefully my gut feeling will not betray me.

i just can't settle in. i'm like going round and round in a vicious circle just like what ashley said.

vicious circle.

no starting point, no ending point.

argh.