The 2 Ws in life, i only want 1 of them.

I wonder what's wrong.

i'm kinda getting sick of ANAT!! Why why why? i can get sick of it later, but definitely not now when my test is on this tues, which is the day after tomorrow. not good, not good at all.

Well, i'm kinda happy that after tuesday, i'm finally getting a life. I shall go swimming, jogging, shopping, eating, sleeping and watching tv, at least for that rest of the week. Somehow, i've been so deprived, this is becoming my goal for this week.

Sad sia.

I shan't complain, cos i have 1 more month before another test comes and that will end this year for me.

It's fast eh? Kinda scary that this year has passed by so extremely fast. I was still working at secret recipe and now i'm in uni and ending my sem 1 already.

Thinking back on what i've done, kinda hope that time just stop. I wanna be lax lax and go for meet ups, go out with cousins, go work OTOT, go out etc etc without having the word " STUDIES" looming over me or haunting me at the back of my head.

I know i should enjoy this year, cos next year is going to be HELL for me. I know that and it'll be draining for me. What a so not good way to start the new sem, but bo bian. i look at the time table and i wanna die.

Looking back, i realised i've matured a little, in the way i think, well, that is in my own opinion, but somehow, i think i've learn to take a back seat already. It's a good feeling and i do feel much appreciative of myself, and not push myself so hard. I've come to realise that eventually everything will come to an end. No point making myself so sick of everything and feeling so unappreciative of myself. Somehow, i've learnt to be more appreciative of others too, which is a good thing. And at the same time, be more comfortable with who i am, and not try to be someone i'm not. It's tough to be always wanting to please, and i pity those who're like that cos they'll always living in someone elses's life and not their own.

I may lose courage in everything, but the least i should have is the courage to face myself.

I'm still learning how to though, but somehow as i age, it's amazing how my thoughts, my view and my way of thinking has changed.

Still amazes me how years can add wisdom and wrinkles at the same time.

TUESDAY!!!! HERE I COME!!!!!!!

Rather get it over and done with ASAP and get on with my FABULOUS plans for the weekend. Hope some dumb prof doesn't come around and throw us anymore bombshells. Lolz.