I forgot i have non- chinese friends reading my blog too. Right i shall blog one more entry. Actually i think that's just my excuse la. Haha..
Eh, Aravin, i'm definitely NOT refering to you. Haha.. Oops
Anyway, i wonder why i am so slack now. Absolutely no drive or motivation to do anything at all. I hope i'm not getting the lazy bug or the slacker's bug. This is not me.
But yeah, i shall slack for one more day and tomorrow i shall chiong my brains out. squeeze out all the brain juice and make sure i use more than 3% of my brain cells in thinking and processing info.
My plan:
Renal
Respiration
Morpho
biochem
Oral bio
Anat
cario report
I doubt i will do any of the above la. Sian.
i'm kinda feeling really reluctant to do anymore work. I'll make a trip out tomorrow anyway. Go and settle my teeth collection thing and cut my hair. Then maybe i shall start mugging. I mean, hard core.
Anat is the killer man, once after that i've like no more drive to continue my fervour in mugging. haha. so i assume you can imagine how active i was at mugging?
No life man.
i realise i really don't click well with quite a few pp i know. i think the problem lies with me la, somehow i am just so reluctant. I mean, my first and second impression wasn't nice. And it kinda made me build a wall around me.
Sia lah, becoming more and more anti-social. I definitely know this is not a good sign. But i don't want to know people because of possible benefits i can get from them. And i hope people don't make friends with me because of that.
I know my friends don't. :) Definitely. I know they'll never do a thing like that to me.
Friendship is a two way thing, which i believe is one where we give support etc etc to each other. Definitely not a means for us to exploit each other, right, maybe not exploit, but you get what i mean. Somehow, i wonder what's wrong with me. It's not that i don't like to make friends, but i just can't seem to be on the same frequency with many now.
It's my problem la. Subconciously, i refuse to give in, to put that trust in them, and most importantly, lose my freedom and be tied down with obligations. It has come to a point where i try to avoid them as much as possible. Once there is a chance that a clique is forming, i will distant myself away. The only thing that is bothering me now is that, well, i should have distant myself away when it started, and somehow i'm kinda like stuck in one now. Been trying to create more personal space, i know it's not gonna be nice for the other person, but i really cannot stand it. I will die of suffocation and the situation now is so not good cos one is super reliant, the other is trying to break away.
Bad situation, makes me feel guilty sometimes, but it can get so bad that i got to lie to get some personal time sometimes. Man. Sinner.
I wonder why girls like to stay in cliques more than guys. I mean, why do girls just like to group together? Weird leh. But i think i'm even more weird by refusing to be in a clique. Oddball. But seriously i wonder. Singapore is so warm, doesn't grouping together makes us feel uncomfortable? Right, that's not the point. Getting random again.
I'm manly. WOOooo. See me flex my muscles.. ARGH. lolz. I think i'm flexing my fats.
good thing is, i still have tons of good friends whom i'm comfortable with, whom i willingly put my trust in them. Yeah..hahahah. But the problem is, my timetable is so screwed up, i can't even really meet up with them regularly!
Really clashes man, when i have exams, they are having lessons. Then when i'm having holiday, they are mugging for exams. When i have lessons, they are having holidays. Bleah.. pui pui pui..
You know ah, i think i need to take things easier sometimes. I realise i take things too hard sometimes. Gosh, not good. I shall make myself less bothered with things lah. No need to get so bothered with things right?
I need to have a life. Eh, actually i'm having one now la. but..... ok, shan't complain. shall attempt to be un-bothered. No, i'm not trying to act cool.
Gosh. i do blog with alarming frequencies. I hope i have Mr Brown's humor. lolz.
Mai Hum Mai hum.. well, does that help?
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