Past

I'm feeling kinda bad now. I've been doing so many things which i should not be doing, but i keep doing them.

Not good at all. I shall exert more self discipline and make myself learn.

It's fast how the year has passed. As i think back of what i've done, i felt kinda hmm.. dunno.
I wonder if i have been doing the right thing afterall. I wonder if i have been nice to myself afterall.

As i look back throughout my 19 years, i realise.. how much i want to go back to the past. When my cousins and i were all under 1 roof and being together, having fun etc etc. It's in a month's time when my eldest cousin will get married. I'm happy for her, but somehow, there's this part of me wanting everyone to go back to the old days, a part of me not wanting her to get married. (OMG)

It's a selfish thought la. But somehow i wish things were the same as last time. i wish i have enjoyed myself more.

Somehow, i'm sad that all is over already and time doesn't wait. But i am glad that at least i was part of it.

If there is another life next time, i will want the same things to happen all over again. Everyone to be together again. I believe it's fate that brought us all into the same family.

And i thank fate for that.