Escapism

Was on my way to tuition when i thought abt escapism. I realised that it has form a part of everyone's life, somehow, there is something that we are all trying to escape from by making ourselves more focused and engaged in other things, hoping our mind will be brought to somewhere really far away from our fears, memories and worries. Gradually, perhaps this way of running away from our problems has become a way of life for us. Only a certain brave few will take on their fears head on.

It seems like the older we grow, the more things we keep inside us, and the more worries we have. Sometimes i feel that, as we grow older, we seem to have lost the ability to smile and laugh from within. What is observed is purely a facial expression and a short moment of joy following a burst of serotonin. How many of us are really confident to say that we do laugh and smile from our hearts, even if we do, when was the last time that happened and how frequent does that happen to us?

Children, in my opinion, are more courageous. Perhaps of their lack of understanding the importance of EQ in the society, they do not hide, or even attempt to hide how they are feeling from within. Daring enough to show the others how they feel from within. You may say that they are naive, but i think they are brave enough to be true to themselves. Sometimes when i look at children, there will be this impulse for me to want to return to childhood. There seems nothing in the world for them to worry about and they get to express their emotions. Sometimes i wonder, if only everyone in the world is as appreciative as a child towards the little things in life, if only we are mor daring to hug and tell the others how much they meant to us, what a difference that would have made to our lives and how many regrets we will not thus have simply because we have told others how much we love them? Fear and more considerations of how the world sees us has made us fearful to express ourselves. Are we being truthful to ourselves then?

Human beings are really complex, somehow, i wish i had the happiness of that little boy who waved and said bye bye to the bangadeshi still working late at night at the bus stop just now. I believe, that made a difference to that man's life since imagine how many other people have had negative stereotypes about them and the type of glances they have recieved. That simple " Bye bye" is more than enough to bring warmth to him i guess, well, at least to me, it did.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Oh yeah, anyway, i bought this really cute pink dress for $25 at the bazaar just now.. haha. It's peach in color and hmmm, kinda short. But i won't wear it yet i suppose, all because of my tan lines. wear already looks like i'm wearing a white tank top underneath lor. hai, to think that i was so proud of my tan lines cos they show that i'm sporty. PUI lor, now i cannot wear new clothes because of the lines. But yeah, it's in the wash now, shall post a photo of it real soon and i guess priviledge few will get to see me wearing it. haha. it was an impulse buy la, but i'm happy about it. SHOPPING makes me HAPPY!!! WEEEEEeeeeeeee. I hope money falls from the sky, so i can shop somemore. haha