I'm sorry

Just talked to ashley over the phone. Something he said reminded me of something important.

I guess i'm being tooo open on my blog, and it's easy to trace just by searching. Sooner or later it'll get me into trouble.

Hai, how sad. Freedom of speech doesn't exist at all.

I shall limit what i say here from now on. I wonder if i can do that.

But thanks for the reminder Ash. I remember that i've neglected my diary for long. Time to turn to it already. Maybe i won't blog as much already. Perhaps, just superficial stuff.

That's the furthest i shall go on from now. Nothing else.

No more rantings, no more of anything else i guess, unless i forget.

Don't blame me, i'm just executing some form of self protection.

The world's a scary place.

Btw, Hope you're feeling better Siew. I know you can do it one. U are much more capable that you even know it yourself.

Jia You!

P.S: found out aravin actually reads my blog. Aravin! read my blog still nv tag ah.. u good.... Stalk me sia. Haha

My Paulgoldin test once more. Certain parts do repeat themselves. Hmmm. Why??

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

Conditions are rather confusing at this time. You would like to involved with a particular person or a particular situation but you are holding back. You find it difficult to make a decision.
Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

I believe. or do i not ??