The irony of life

Sometimes when life gives you something, it takes away something from you too. And just as you're about to forget what u've lost, when u're just starting to get over it, life has a weird way of letting that thing appear again, reminding you of what was taken away from you.

Sometimes when you thought things are finally going the way you want them to be, when you thought things are just going to change for the better, just when u've seem to forget what was painful and what you long for. The very thing you want so much appears right before your eyes, just to disappear again in the next split second.

Why? I've always wondered.

Are wishes really granted? Are prayers really answered?

How can one learn to let go when the things all around keeps reminding you of things u'll never want to see, nv want to hear, nv want to feel again?

Life's a puzzling thing. i guess the only time when you've really gotten over something is when you suddenly remember it, cos that's when u're really forgotten about it.

Maybe that's how life wants us to really forget everything that has happened, simply by forcing us to harden our hearts and not hold any hopes each time we see what we long to have, but will never have. That's tough training, to make you face what u fear and make sure u overcome it, the cold hard way.

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Well, ignore the ramblings. Something happy to share, that is.. my physio CA1, i got 80% !!! yeah, although it may not be as good as compared to the few who got like 80 plus percen to 90 plus percent, i'm happy enough to obtain this grade la. Kinda really studied for it. I guess u'll just feel so darn happy upon getting marks higher than 60 after JC, cos it's so difficult to even pass sometimes, that's for NJ la. My only A and B back then was in J1 lor, the rest were like super CUI lor, either DDEE, or EEFF, or DEEE etc etc. So demoralising. But then, this was a MCQ test la, so hmm.. maybe i was lucky afterall too? Who knows.

Ok, shall return to my exercise. i'm always exercising my brain. How i wish exercising the brain burns as much fats as swimming 10 laps, cos if that's the case, i'll be skeleton already.

Anat test is coming, sia lah..